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why do things have to turn out this way? why has a decisive man turned into a indecisive man overnight?

oh whatever man. i just want to say. whatever is your final decision, just make your stand on it will you? but if you prefer to sit down there grumble so much and yet do nothing, then there's also nothing much anyone can do to you too. it's your life. if you enjoyed wasting other people's precious time and money, then continue to live your life like that. but this will only have one such ending. it's that it'll increased the hatred and possibilities of compromising anything in future is almost zero. it can also prove that you've grown inmatured over this period of time. come on la. don't just because you've mixed around with people so much younger than your age that you've also changed into such an inmatured man. open your heart and your mind and accept the reality. don't always let your ego stand in front of your mind and heart.

whatever it is, i just want to say. your kind of stupidity actions will not cause much harm to me. i've grown stronger, much stronger than before. but i've no regrets in whatever things i've chose or done in the past, now or in the future.

you continue to live your life with whosoever and behave in your whatsoever attitude, but just stay happy because that's more important. don't put your anger or try to induce your negative feelings into others.

i love my daughters, Andrea Goh and Adrienne Goh.

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mon & tues @ chalet wif "it"..weds @ movies wif "it"..wooh..tis guy no nid to wrk to earn more $$ meh??tot he always tells his wife tt he cant mit nor go out durin wkdays cos he wans to brin hme more $$??f**k him..ask him go f**k spider beta..ask him to slap himself wif his own words nw..y is he always nt wrkin & stickin ard tt "it"..wtf??

wen wife was preg @ her most vunerable stage..tt "it" was alrdy actively involved wif tis guy..whether they gt f**k or nt they themselves noe..wife doesn't wan to noe..she onli noes tt tis f**kin b**ch her cbz itchy wan to find tis guy & f**k..

d wife juz wan to tell tt f**kin b**ch tis..
[it al started bcos of u..u'll get ur retributions..u broke up a famili & u'll get punished..]

i reali pity d wife..aft al tis time..tt guy til nw stil onli noe hw to blame d wife for wadever has happened..dun he feel ashamed or feel tt he's done wrong too??he kips sayin he did nt do anitink wrong..pls lor..den everythin is d wife's wrong huh??if a relationship shld breakdown..iz always 2 parties fault lor..

aiyah..blame d wife for gettin pregnant @ sucha time wen d f**kin b**ch can come in..blame d wife for doin confinement @ sucha time wen tt f**kin b**ch can cont to stick her bloody asshole to d guy..all d wife's fault meh??den d guy leh..he himself shld noe beta den let tt f**kin b**ch stick to him wen he f**kin hell jolly well noes tt d f**kin b**ch likes him..& whole thing is more funni until last nite d guy told told his wife tt he ever rejected d "it"..FYI..d wife nvr once heard fm d horse's mouth heard tt d f**kin b**ch liked d guy & confessed her luv for him..d wife was juz unhappy al along wif tt f**kin b**ch's existence..since d guy knew tt "it" liked him & he's a married man..shldn't he avoid tt f**kin b**ch??

so much tok abt tt f**kin b**ch bein his moral support nw..bullshit..she's juz playin angel wen he's dw..she's actualli gloatin in her heart finnaly she got wad she wanted..a divorce btw tis guy & his wife..u tink she's an angel??nope..she's juz a knnbccb f**kin b**ch..

i reali reali pity d wife..pity her for cryin her heart out for tis man..pity her for always popping pills in d past to try to relieve herself of all her sorrows tis man had given her..pity d wife for her believe in tis man tt he reali loved her so much so much..pity d wife for enduring so much pain durin her 2 pregnancies & d amt of pain she suffered durin her labour twice..doin so much for tis guy yet d guy til nw still blames d wife for d hurt she had given him wen she left him..u tink d wife wasn't hurt in any way??go & tink abt it..

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True Life Story (tell me hw u feel)

tis guy & gal were a couple for 10 over yrs..they knew each other since they were teenagers..paktor for sm yrs..got married & hab kids of their own..but den nw..they're gettin a divorce..sad story huh??

guy's version

gal left him aft so many yrs juz to seek her own freedom in life..she chooses her frenz over him..she dun lik to get tied dw & stil cant committed to parenthood..he cried so badly for her askin her to stay..aft couple of mths later..he gt over her..

gal's version

guy had a gal buddy..let's name her "it" here..they're real close frenz..

"it" was intro a nite job by guy.."it" bcame his regular passenger..they were supper buddies even aft "it" quit her job..guy always say he cant send wife hme or hab dinner wif her cos iz his "golden time"..yet he can hab occasional kopi sessions wif "it" during his "golden time"..

durin his off days or occasionally wen guy picks up his wife aft wrk.."it" always calls him or sms him..guy either picks up once in front of wife tryin to show there's nuttin between them or either dun ans her calls & says iz a male fren callin..wen guy picks up her calls or sms durin his off day..he either walks away to reply or ans "it" calls..

guy told wife he wana arrange chalet getaways wif family..nvr once succeed cos he cant take leave if nt income wil be affected..cant take off days to spend time wif wife oso cos wil affect income..cant go out on off days cos rarely hab enuff rest so usually stay at hme..nw wife is onli gone for a couple of mths..guy goes out on off days wif "it"..guy takes leave fm wrk to go chalet wif family & "it"..

Comments on the below:

wife nvr seen "it" ever since guy noe her..kopi gatherings wif "it" & frenz nvr involve wife..if wife happens to tag along.."it" nvr shows up..

wife left d hse less den 2 wks.."it" turns up at hse on pretext of givin x'mas presents to guy's kids..wad d hell is tis??

guy & wife yet separated nor divorce..wife happens to call guy wantin to tok to their kid.."it" picks up d call instead..wad d fark is tis??

guy nvr attend his wife's company functions or frenz parties cos he shy dunno them den will feel uncomfortable..wife no choice but to accept d fact..aft wife left him..he attended a x'mas party wif "it" to "it" mgr's hse..halo..guy dunno d mgr so y he go??den who is tis guy to "it" wen she attends her mgr's x'mas party..usually u'll onli bring ur immediate family to attend ur boss's parties..so wad nonsense is tis??

guy always scolds wife bitch wen she brings kids out wif male fren..den hw come he can always bring the kids out wif "it"??nw who is d bitch here??

guy nvr appears for his own famili outings..wife always goes outings wif his famili..nw wife nt ard..guy arranges famili outing & brings "it" along..who d fark is she??

guy kips sayin he luvs wife alot alot alot..den y issit he spent more time wif "it" & can actually make arrangements to take leave & spend time together wif his family wif "it"??nw does tis show he luvs d wife alot??

dun make excuses say tis "it" was there for him wen he was dw aft his wife left him..d "it" was there since d wife was pregnant..d wife hated her existence but d guy is so insensitive & cant feel wife's fustrations..

in life..esp in relationships..if it breaks dw..both parties r to b blamed..iz either lack of communication or miscommunication..

salvage ur relationship while u can..dun wait until iz over den u start blamin d other party..

guy ever says tt his heart is in terrible pain cos of his wife leaving him..he's deeply hurt by her..wife juz wana tel him..she's equally hurt nw..

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argh!!today EG approached me & asked me to do her a favour which is to cover recep wrk for a day..i stood there stunned for awhile whilst tryin to digest wadever she had juz said to me..den i asked her which day she nid me & for hw long i've to cover recep wrk..den she mentioned she nid me to cover d recep wrk for d whole day cos JW wil be on course..shit man..iz d "Customer Service Training" programme on 8/3 & 9/3...as i'll be gg for d same course on 9/3..den it means AT wil hab to go on d 8/3..& al tis simple meant 8/3..i'll hab to sit @ d reception for d whole day while coverin AT's duties & my own duties as wel..sittin @ d reception answerin calls d whole day & doin reception wrk..isn't it abit lik kena demoted tt kinda feelin??den sittin @ d reception means i'll be lik a handicap for a day cos tt pc dun hab excel nor words & iz nt linked to any printer..& oso iz nt lotus notes supported..den hw d hell can i check my boss/executive/AT/my email??oh shit..i'm so damn pek chek nw..wel..honestly i dun blame EG @ all cos she reali dun hab enuff gals to cover d reception wrk..i detest d dept who kept wantin us to go for d courses they had set out for d whole yr..do they tink wen they kip sendin d whole company's staff for courses it'll actually do any help??pls lor..if they're nt in d rite attitude to attend d course..u tink ppl can absorb anitink @ all??everyone had to squeeze time out to attend all tis courses but does tt improve our motivation to wrk..pls lor..it actually demoralised us cos majority of us find it a drag to attend all tis courses cos durin d course..our minds r still tinkin abt our pending wrk..den d day aft our course we all hab to slog lik donkeys cos of d unfinished wrk while attendin d course..tis is nt wrkin rite..i find it very irritatin as my time always gets interrupted by very ridiculous matters..hw can i put my priorities rite den wen i dun hab d rite resourses to wrk & insufficient time to complete??everyday i wrk O/T for d company..wad do i get??words of appreciation??nah..ppl onli tink they haben drain u enuff & u're nt wrkin enuff..they tink d company is payin u salary so they wan to make full use of u..

haiz..wad can i do??blame myself for nt studyin much in d past..haiz..nw i can onli wait til yr end den..(to be continued)

nw i've to continue to do my budget liao..dunno wad time den i can slp..nw i'm beginnin to detest wrk..if onli i hab loads of $$..

*dreaming*

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sat aftnoon...Jeannie called me @ abt 1pm...told me she hab tis drippin feelin...told her to monitor for another hr...if cannot must called gynea liao...abt 2pm Jeannie sms me said she had dilated 3cm...nw gg to admit herself into MAH...wooh...everyone so excited bcos its so sudden...waited for her call til abt 1130pm den James called & said Jeannie gave birth abt an hr bck...waaa..finally...we can all go to bed soundly...

today visited Jeannie @ MAH...baby Jerlene's such a sweetie...so pretty...she has gt d eyes of James & d face of Jeannie...she's reali a sweet babe...she kept yawnin wen everyone was ard her...very kaypoh dun wan to slp...hahaha...same like father so kaypoh...hahaha...

wah...baby Jerlene's ht & head circumference is 3349...many of us bought tt number & we all strike consolation prize...yeah!!!nt gg to tel ya hw much i won...but iz been such a long x since i strike lottery...baby Jerlene reali brings us luck...majority of us bought d number except James & Jeannie...hahahaha...

so tired nw...nt feelin quite ok...gotta rest nw...ciaoz!!

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*yawns*

shoppin should be a beri excitin & fun task..but y is mine so tedious??haiz..wen shoppin equals to wrkin..den iz no longer a excitin & fun task..iz such a mind drainin task..drains out al my energy..sucks d life outta me..

wana noe more abt wad i'm doin??details of my tedious task to be updated by end of Jan06..

life is hard..but i'll survive..cos both Andrea & Adrienne are my love/energy/strength/life motivation/purpose in life..

I Love Andrea & Adrienne With All My Life~~~~~~~

Fustration

haiz..havin probs @ wrk recently..so damn fustrated man..wads wrong wif him??he says he's had enuff of shit fm me..halo??luk who's tokin..i oso hab enuff of his shit liao lor..but 1 of my colleague told me tis..no matter wad..onli he has gt d rite to gib me shit..i cant..cos he is my ****..

life's so unfair..i always believe..dun do it onto others if u dun wan others to do it onto u..y does he hab to make ppl's life so miserable??y cant he get a life of his own??can someone be kind enuff to ask him to wake up his ******* mind??can someone be kind enuff to go & tel him tt thr is smtin in tis world called retribution..one reaps wad he sows..

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

welcome to d nasty & ugly side of d adult wrkin life!!
may d force b wif u!!

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tis 2 days brought Andrea to sch..oh mine..she has reali grown up liao..she plays by herself on d 1st day i brought her thr..2nd day onwards..she's runnin ard d sch..upstairs & dwstairs..runnin everywhere lukin for her frenz to play..she reali blends in fast to d new environment..just lik her mummy..a survivor out thr..& of cos..sociable character..heez..

her daddy gives her $2 everyday to bring to to sch & she can also manage to save a dollar plus into her piggy bank..heez..she noes @ d end of d mth she gets to buy smtin she likes wif d $ tt she had saved up..hope she doesn't skip her recess meals just to buy smtin @ d end of d mth..

Adrienne's learnin to tok..blah blah blah..toks & toks..dunno wad she tokin abt but she reali can brighten up ur day wif her bb tok..kekeke..

i love Andrea & Adrienne alot alot alot alot alot..nuttin can chng my luv for them..nvr..

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oh my goodness..its been more then a mth since i last blog ah??hmmm..times reali flies hor..

haiz..hab been reali damn bz recently..so many things hab changed in my life..i'm oso always nt feelin wel..but then again..i'm a survivor..i can make it!!

today brought Andrea & Adrienne to United Square "Toys R Rus" to buy Adrienne's 1st yr old bdae gift..saw tis walker toy & i reali liked it alot..so i intended to buy it for her bdae lor.. (pic to be uploaded if possible)

Adrienne reali put on a certain weight liao wor..carry her until my waist & arms oso abit tired..heez..

Andrea's such a darlin..so is Adrienne..i reali love both so them so much so much so much..

haiz..i reali miss the both of them every now & then..will they miss me as much as i've missed them??

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wad is luv??
no one can explain it clearly..
no matter hw lovin a couple can be..
luv will fade wen it has to fade..

wad r d promises u hab to keep in a relationship??
stay together lovingly for eternal??
dun bullshit la..

in a relationship..
dun ever gib empty promises which u cant keep..
it onli brings more hurt to d other party..

wad d hell is wrong wif me tonite??

*sigh*

time will heal everything..
heal every single hurt u feel deep inside u..

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ladies & gentlemen...time for an update liao...

finally as at 1/10/05...my new designation is "Confidential Secretary"...
nuttin interesting here...

*sigh*

pay wise ah...only increase tt little bit nial leh...
dun ask me hw much...bcos iz reali peanuts lor...

as for job roles iz quite d same lor...
wadever i've been doin for tis 4.6yrs is secretarial wrk wad...
but of cos la...job title change den job roles sure increase one la...
expected one...

*sigh*

dunno y leh...
maybe bcos i've been waiting too long for tis promotion...
nw i'm nt d least excited over it...
nvm...beta den nt gettin promoted rite???

anyway...enuff of my moodiness liao...

Happy Deepavali To All My Loved Ones~~~

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31/10/05

last day doin my part-time report...shag sial...any guesses where i was tt day???

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my little darlin Adrienne so grouchy today..
keep cryin in her slp..
mayb bcos she's havin fever ba..
poor babe..
me heartache wen i c her lidat..

*sigh*

ytd morn told Andrea off bcos i was so angry wif her..
d nite b4 ytd i was packin her sch bag den i came across these stickers..
stickers bearin her name..looks kinda familiar to me leh..
so ytd morn i asked if she went to my stickers box to take my stickers..
she nodded her head..
den i scolded her sayin tt if she took my things wifout askin my permission is considered stealin..
stealin means i'll hab to call d police to catch her to d police station..
told her in future she do tis kinda stuff again den i'll chop her hands off & ask d police to catch her..

heez..i beli mean hor??
no choice la..
cos i'm a bad mother..

*sigh*

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photos taken on 26/10/2005



today he is so damn farkin idiotic..

pissed me off wif his words..

make me so damn tulanz of him..

i reali feel lik tellin him.."hey old fart..get a life man..u reali smell bad.."

*sigh*

betcha he noes me wont leave tt company cos i stil under bond til Dec 06..

dammit..y do i hab to bear wif his farkin nonsense??

but den again..cannot bcos of him i go against my own pocket $ mah..

haiz..$ prob again..



wad a tiring day @ wrk..

rushin all d master contract docs..al d formats & everythin..

so damn tirin..

reali feel lik slpin esp wen d piling wrk @ d extension is causin me to hab headaches & feel nausea..



he went on half-day pm & u noe wad he did??

he called bck to spot-check me..

hey blardy old freakin idiot..go check on someone else & go pick on someone ur age la..

blardy old freak..

hate to tok to him on d fone..

yucks!!!!!

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my fav Hello Kitty organiser...



my dinner just nw wif Roy @ Geylang...my fav claypot frog legs...



kena scolded for nuttin...haiz...wadever...me nw super moody...

suddenly tinkin of wad ZQ is havin tis few days for his meals...pumpkin soup wif pumpkin...potato wif chicken...green peas soup...muffins...yucks...suddenly i felt so lucky...wahahahaha...

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if 1 day i shld find d path ahead is nt so optimistic..i might choose to detour..or i might seek d easiest path to release everything tt's being buried deep within me..

u wana call it d weakling attitude or u wana call it d loser path..up to u..cos to me..iz call d emergency exit..

at times..we might nt noe exactly wad we wan in life..we might feel hopeless & lonely in tis world..but at times..we might feel everything in life is wrkin out great..we hab aspirations to wrk towards..aims to achieve..goals to succeed..

life is so unpredictable..juz wen u tink tt "hey...things r startin to look gd man"..but den again..another situation arises..

ups & downs..ups & downs..life's reali lik a roller-coaster ride..just wen u tot u're escalating..al of a sudden..u zoom dw in a matter of seconds.. *sigh*

wad d hell m i tokin abt??haiz..wadever man..

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wa liew...today is a super boring sunday...actually supposed to meet Jean go to Ja hse...but tis morn last min Ja sms me says she needs to go over to her sis's hse...so today appt wif us gotta be cancelled...haiz...wad can i say???nvm lor...anyway...i've gt tonnes of ofc wrk to do oso...lotsa paperwrk man...dammit...m i too slow or issit i'm overloaded wif wrk???y cant i seem to finish d wrk leh???

hmmm...Roy woke up early today & went out...i tot he's comin hme to hab dinner wif me...but he called up shortly askin if he can hab dinner wif his fren???oh well...go ahead ba...iz ur life...i've no control over it...so long as he dun control my life can liao...fair & square rite???heez...gd oso la...cos i'll be tied up wif my wrk dun hab tt x to entertain him...let his fren entertain him ba...btw...tt fren is a gal...wadever... (FYI...thr is no sour grapes involved here...so dun try to smell anitink here hor)

Mama, Andrea, Adrienne & Siti went CWP for their dinner...me too lazy to go liao...haben bathe oso...eeks...do i smell???no idea la...wahahahaha...

Andrea adores her baby sister Adrienne alot...

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Adrienne & Cousin Jerald

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i reali liked my new look leh...heez...



ytd went Hyatt Hotel for Cousin Jeffrey's wedding wif Jasmine...d food is nice esp d sharks fin leh...too bad i cant take foto thr cos too many ppl lookin liao...wait they all tink i crazy or wad...heez...

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wahahahaha...i'm so thrilled...i finally did my rebonding...share share nice pics ard...

before rebonding...



after rebonding...

nice or not leh???