Yoo Hoo~
It's the time of the day again. What time is it? It's blogging time!
hahahahahahaha.. =)
Today is Thursday, which is Alpha course at Wesley Methodist Church.
Before I begin my thoughts for the night, I've to thank Francis for getting me a bible of my own.
Thank you Brother-in-law. =)
Ok. Back to my views and thoughts for tonight.
Tonight's topic for the group sharing session was:
"What are your thoughts when you hear people mentioned to you that Jesus died for you?"
As usual la, I was quiet throughout the session lor. Shy mah, but in fact, scared that they will noticed the big pimple on my left eye (just below my eyebrow). Eeks!
hahahahahahahahaha.. =P
My turn again and my answer was:
Jesus very "Wei Da" lor.
Ok. No right or wrong answer here ah.
It was said that we've to accept Jesus Christ and The Lord as our God because God sent his only Son, Jesus Christ, to come and die for us to atone for our sins. Which God will die for his followers?
Hmmm.. My thoughts ah?
Err.. Jesus Christ is like Tang Sang Zhang (Tripiktra.. or something like that.. I don't know how to spell his name la). Only that Tang Sang Zhang did not die for his followers la. But he went West (on foot and at times ride his horse la) to collect all the scriptures in order to save mankind. Sure some people will ask me how true is this and will say this is only a myth or legend, right? But you people never watch drama series meh? It's always screened like that mah. If these were untrue, how come there is Sun Wukong, Zhu Ba Jie, Zhi Zhu Jing etc?
"Passion of the Christ" is based on true story as what you all will say. Then how come "Xi You Ji (Journey to the West)" cannot be based on true story leh?
Paisey ah. Just that people tend to do a lot of comparisons and have a lot of questions and arguements before they actually convert to be a Christian. I've to make sure my doubts are cleared before I make any decisions on whether to exchange my bucket of water with God and also in turn let go my existing bucket of water. I definitely won't want to follow a religion for the sake of following. I must be sure and this takes time.
Jie must be patient with me ok?
Oh, before I forget but I need to say this out or else I very "buey song". Some people are so rude, no manners. No matter how tired you are, if you attend some course at anywhere. Be it if it's at a church, a temple or even an institution, please don't sleep there ok? Cannot stand the attitude of these people. No manners I still must say again. I'm also very tired after a day at work lor. At most, I'll only keep yawning and move my body here and there at times, but I won't sleep there lor. Next time want to sleep, please go home and sleep. The church is not for you to go there and sleep. Haiz. Young people nowadays don't know what is respect.
Anyway, I've had a very tough week at work recently. Perhaps I should start praying for a better tomorrow?
Hmmm.. Wait la. Slowly la. Some things cannot be rushed.
Anyway, God Loves Us & I Love All Of You~
=)
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Peace
Went to Wesley Methodist Church and attended an Alpha course with Jie & ZQ. Oh! Thank you Jie for paying the $20 for me thou that’s what is left in your wallet today. But, nevermind la. Tomorrow you still can withdraw somemore out from your bank account.
hahahahahahaha..
During the video clip I nearly fell asleep. No choice la because I really felt super tired today.
After the video clip, the people were divided into a few groups. Every group (ours is Group 4) had to do a sharing session within our own group and we had to find a partner and self-introduce ourself to him. The person who introduced me to the group was called Jason. He had no choice but to tell the group what I said to him. My purpose of going there tonight was “tag along for the sake of tag along”.
hahahahahaha…
*faint*
Then came the sharing about your understanding of “Who is Jesus” or perhaps even anything about the video clip (I start to break out in cold sweat le).
Here comes my turn. I told them I have nothing to say but they insisted I say something, or anything. So I said, “Er, the chair is very uncomfortable”.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha…
*pengz*
Jie must have “flipped” after she heard my answer. I cannot help it la because I cannot form my sentences properly when there is a “formation” in the group. Just like during meetings when I had to talk. If everybody is so tense, I will also turned “gan jiong” lor. But if its those kind of meetings when the table is full of papers everywhere and everybody is sitting in a very relaxed mode, I can talk with confidence. It all comes with practice I suppose.
There was someone mentioning about people who are here to be seekers. I am not a seeker. I am just a follower. I follow my heart, I go where my heart wants me to go and do what my heart wants me to do.
I’m not out to seek to understand how Jesus Christ looks like or what he had said or done. I always believe that Jesus Christ exists. I also believe that Kwan Yin Ma, Guan Gong etc does exists as well. There are people who have seen Jesus Christ, but there are also people who had seen Kwan Yin Ma and other Gods. To me, they are like human beings with different surnames. The Chans, Tans, Tengs, Foos are all human beings. Jesus Christ, Kwan Yin Ma, Guan Gong are all God.
I won’t purposely go and seek what is the difference in Christianity or perhaps Taoism.
To me, if I’m the child of God, I don’t have to go and seek for Him. He’ll get his other children to look for me and bring me back to Him. For long before I was conceived by my parents, I was conceived in the mind of God.
Peace will bring me to the place I need to go or to the God to follow.
hahahahahahaha..
During the video clip I nearly fell asleep. No choice la because I really felt super tired today.
After the video clip, the people were divided into a few groups. Every group (ours is Group 4) had to do a sharing session within our own group and we had to find a partner and self-introduce ourself to him. The person who introduced me to the group was called Jason. He had no choice but to tell the group what I said to him. My purpose of going there tonight was “tag along for the sake of tag along”.
hahahahahaha…
*faint*
Then came the sharing about your understanding of “Who is Jesus” or perhaps even anything about the video clip (I start to break out in cold sweat le).
Here comes my turn. I told them I have nothing to say but they insisted I say something, or anything. So I said, “Er, the chair is very uncomfortable”.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha…
*pengz*
Jie must have “flipped” after she heard my answer. I cannot help it la because I cannot form my sentences properly when there is a “formation” in the group. Just like during meetings when I had to talk. If everybody is so tense, I will also turned “gan jiong” lor. But if its those kind of meetings when the table is full of papers everywhere and everybody is sitting in a very relaxed mode, I can talk with confidence. It all comes with practice I suppose.
There was someone mentioning about people who are here to be seekers. I am not a seeker. I am just a follower. I follow my heart, I go where my heart wants me to go and do what my heart wants me to do.
I’m not out to seek to understand how Jesus Christ looks like or what he had said or done. I always believe that Jesus Christ exists. I also believe that Kwan Yin Ma, Guan Gong etc does exists as well. There are people who have seen Jesus Christ, but there are also people who had seen Kwan Yin Ma and other Gods. To me, they are like human beings with different surnames. The Chans, Tans, Tengs, Foos are all human beings. Jesus Christ, Kwan Yin Ma, Guan Gong are all God.
I won’t purposely go and seek what is the difference in Christianity or perhaps Taoism.
To me, if I’m the child of God, I don’t have to go and seek for Him. He’ll get his other children to look for me and bring me back to Him. For long before I was conceived by my parents, I was conceived in the mind of God.
Peace will bring me to the place I need to go or to the God to follow.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Frustration Day
Day 1
Verse to memorise : "Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him"
A penny for your thots?
=========================================================
Actually started the day with a very relaxed mood and told myself today's gonna be a good day.
Haiz..
Sometimes I wonder and wonder and wonder if I've made a right choice so far.
People around me in my current company:
1) Looks friendly but ain't so friendly
2) Looks harmless but full of daggers in pocket ready to stab you
3) Looks hardworking but is a "medium in the snake temple"
4) Looks cooperative but is a "Taiji master" in actual fact
5) Looks like a good coach but in fact teaches you nothing
Know what it feels like after a month in the company?
Feels like I've being kicked into the open sea but was not given any swimming float to help stay above the water nor being taught any swimming or survival skills.
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THEM!!!
There's no system of how things should be done.
There's not enough support to make the operation go on smoothly.
There're too many mouths given their 2cents worth of opinion (too many cooks spoils the soup).
HELP~
Since morning I had stomach cramps.
I've being surrounded by negative people.
My overloaded boss who grumbles and grumbles.
Can't really blame her cos she's really under alot of stress from her own boss.
She's simply overloaded with work therefore her grumbles become louder and seems to take up more time to finish her each grumble.
But gotta take my hat off her too.
Thou she grumbles alot, she still completes "some" tasks at the end of the day.
Then there is this contractor who did not get any of the 2 tenders called for recently.
He has been grumbling in my ears for days already.
When can he stop it?
Haiz..
I kena nagged and "bombed" the whole day till I became so negative now..
I REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING OUT LOUD NOW!!!
Cannot stand it already.
Better watch my "Bleach" now.
Verse to memorise : "Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him"
A penny for your thots?
=========================================================
Actually started the day with a very relaxed mood and told myself today's gonna be a good day.
Haiz..
Sometimes I wonder and wonder and wonder if I've made a right choice so far.
People around me in my current company:
1) Looks friendly but ain't so friendly
2) Looks harmless but full of daggers in pocket ready to stab you
3) Looks hardworking but is a "medium in the snake temple"
4) Looks cooperative but is a "Taiji master" in actual fact
5) Looks like a good coach but in fact teaches you nothing
Know what it feels like after a month in the company?
Feels like I've being kicked into the open sea but was not given any swimming float to help stay above the water nor being taught any swimming or survival skills.
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THEM!!!
There's no system of how things should be done.
There's not enough support to make the operation go on smoothly.
There're too many mouths given their 2cents worth of opinion (too many cooks spoils the soup).
HELP~
Since morning I had stomach cramps.
I've being surrounded by negative people.
My overloaded boss who grumbles and grumbles.
Can't really blame her cos she's really under alot of stress from her own boss.
She's simply overloaded with work therefore her grumbles become louder and seems to take up more time to finish her each grumble.
But gotta take my hat off her too.
Thou she grumbles alot, she still completes "some" tasks at the end of the day.
Then there is this contractor who did not get any of the 2 tenders called for recently.
He has been grumbling in my ears for days already.
When can he stop it?
Haiz..
I kena nagged and "bombed" the whole day till I became so negative now..
I REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING OUT LOUD NOW!!!
Cannot stand it already.
Better watch my "Bleach" now.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Daily Thots
11 Aug 07
Went M'sia (Holiday Plaza) for my hair rebonding..
Watch out... Pretty gal coming... Weet!! Weet!!
12 Aug 07
Went Charis Church with ZQ, Jie & Francis for our 2nd session of the "40days Purpose Driven Life"..
As usual.. I was late again.. (hahahaha)
It was the pastor talking that morning..
Terrible me.. Kept on yawning nonstop..
*slapz*
Next stop.. Lunch at Northpoint with Jie & Francis.
Exciting part coming along..
*drums roll*
drrrrr... drrrr... drrrr.....
Jie & Francis bought me a new hp..
Nokia 6300..
Yeapie!!!!!!!!
I'm walking on sunshine..
Woo Hoo~
I'm walking on sunshine..
Woo Woo Hoo~
10 good reasons why Jie & Francis bought me a new hp:
1) My Nokia N73 after upgrading the software & chng of new sim card still fails me.. I still cant receive or send out all my smses..
2) I've insufficient moni to chng new hp..
3) I've been a very good gal..
4) God is Good..
5) God is Great..
6) Jie is Good..
7) Jie is Great..
8) Francis is Good..
9) Francis is Great..
10) Jie & Francis Loves Me..
Woo Hoo~
Jie also bought me a new facial cleanser cos I complaint of having breakouts..
Tried the cleanser le..
Not bad sial.. (Thou I dunno what brand it is)
So happy when the auntie asked if we were sisters..
She said me & Jie look quite alike..
Yeah~
So long never hear that comment le..
Heex..
I'm a gal who needs constant assurance..
13 Aug 07
In the middle of the nite had very bad blocked runny nose..
One-third of my dustbin was filled with my mucus-filled tissues..
Went to see the doc in the late morning..
Doctor said I've nose allergy..
I've to be on nasal spray & medication for at least 3mths..
haiz..
Took a nap in the afternoon..
Woke up with a terrible thumping headache..
What's wrong man..
Tmr's going to be a tough day..
CEO reached SG fm HKG..
Note sent to all via email/sms/phone call (formal office attire)..
haiz...
I'm a informal gal by default..
Went M'sia (Holiday Plaza) for my hair rebonding..
Watch out... Pretty gal coming... Weet!! Weet!!
12 Aug 07Went Charis Church with ZQ, Jie & Francis for our 2nd session of the "40days Purpose Driven Life"..
As usual.. I was late again.. (hahahaha)
It was the pastor talking that morning..
Terrible me.. Kept on yawning nonstop..
*slapz*
Next stop.. Lunch at Northpoint with Jie & Francis.
Exciting part coming along..
*drums roll*
drrrrr... drrrr... drrrr.....
Jie & Francis bought me a new hp..
Nokia 6300..
Yeapie!!!!!!!!
I'm walking on sunshine..
Woo Hoo~
I'm walking on sunshine..
Woo Woo Hoo~
10 good reasons why Jie & Francis bought me a new hp:
1) My Nokia N73 after upgrading the software & chng of new sim card still fails me.. I still cant receive or send out all my smses..
2) I've insufficient moni to chng new hp..
3) I've been a very good gal..
4) God is Good..
5) God is Great..
6) Jie is Good..
7) Jie is Great..
8) Francis is Good..
9) Francis is Great..
10) Jie & Francis Loves Me..
Woo Hoo~
Jie also bought me a new facial cleanser cos I complaint of having breakouts..
Tried the cleanser le..
Not bad sial.. (Thou I dunno what brand it is)
So happy when the auntie asked if we were sisters..
She said me & Jie look quite alike..
Yeah~
So long never hear that comment le..
Heex..
I'm a gal who needs constant assurance..
13 Aug 07
In the middle of the nite had very bad blocked runny nose..
One-third of my dustbin was filled with my mucus-filled tissues..
Went to see the doc in the late morning..
Doctor said I've nose allergy..
I've to be on nasal spray & medication for at least 3mths..
haiz..
Took a nap in the afternoon..
Woke up with a terrible thumping headache..
What's wrong man..
Tmr's going to be a tough day..
CEO reached SG fm HKG..
Note sent to all via email/sms/phone call (formal office attire)..
haiz...
I'm a informal gal by default..
Monday, August 06, 2007
Daily Thots
Tired.. Shag.. Sleepy.. Headache.. Gastric Pain.. Nausea..
Spent almost the whole day at Parkway Parade store..
Thou went to Bugis for a meeting with the landlord..
But after the meeting finished had to return to Parkway Parade store again..
So many outstanding issues there..
All because majority were last minute requests..
Haizz..
Can you people just make up your mind on what you want and what you need??
Shitz man..
After work went for Pilates class @ Amore (Kovan)..
Majority of the time I was laughing away cos I couldn't bend nor stretch like the rest of the gals in the class..
But not that I didn't want to try out the stretches wor..
Its because my hip bone hurts when I did the "ultimate" stretches..
Then halfway thru the class my face felt "hot", my head started to feel heavy and my breathing became heavier..
Haiz..
Guess I'm more of a CardioBlitz gal then a Pilates gal..
But nevertheless..
I've booked for Pilates class next Mon again..
Must try out again and see how..
Cannot lose out to the Aunties..
Grrr....
kekekeke... =P
Aiyoyo.. So late le ah??
Dun care..
At least must watch a few episodes of "Bleach"..
Spent almost the whole day at Parkway Parade store..
Thou went to Bugis for a meeting with the landlord..
But after the meeting finished had to return to Parkway Parade store again..
So many outstanding issues there..
All because majority were last minute requests..
Haizz..
Can you people just make up your mind on what you want and what you need??
Shitz man..
After work went for Pilates class @ Amore (Kovan)..
Majority of the time I was laughing away cos I couldn't bend nor stretch like the rest of the gals in the class..
But not that I didn't want to try out the stretches wor..
Its because my hip bone hurts when I did the "ultimate" stretches..
Then halfway thru the class my face felt "hot", my head started to feel heavy and my breathing became heavier..
Haiz..
Guess I'm more of a CardioBlitz gal then a Pilates gal..
But nevertheless..
I've booked for Pilates class next Mon again..
Must try out again and see how..
Cannot lose out to the Aunties..
Grrr....
kekekeke... =P
Aiyoyo.. So late le ah??
Dun care..
At least must watch a few episodes of "Bleach"..
Sunday, August 05, 2007
The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren
Wow.. Subject title v chim rite??
Nvr heared abt this book b4??
Hey u~ Sua Ku Ah??
hahahaha.. oopss.. =P
Years ago, I used to hab a small booklet on this topic..
Given to me by my sister, which is of cos, Joyce.
But its being left at my prev hse..
Being invited to join Jean at Charis Methodist Church for 40 Days of Purpose..
Went with Jie, Francis & ZQ..
Attended the 1st session this morn @ 11plus..
Was v tired & a little bit late for the session..
But I didn't doze off ok??
(not that i wanted to be late wor.. but i worked until past 12am the nite b4.. so i was really v tired ok.. heex.. nuttin but excuses.. but its the truth lor.. hahahaha..)
Don't ask me what I've learnt from the session today..
Sshhh..
Its my secret..
Don't tell you..
Want to know more abt it??
Go attend the session yourself to find out lor..
Its up to me to know..
For you to find out..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. =P
Jie gave me a "The Faith-Sharing New Testament With The Psalms"..
ZQ says the bible is better than my "Harry Potter" series..
But how to compare leh when ZQ nvr read a single book on "Harry Potter"..
Nonsense him.. hahahaha.. =P
But now I'm stuck in between..
Dunno which one to choose..
I've so many comics waiting to be read..
Lots of new storybooks waiting to be read..
"The Faith-Sharing New Testament With The Psalms" waiting to be read..
"The Purpose Driven Life" waiting to be read..
Oh No~
Which one should i choose 1st leh??
Think I beta continue watching my animation "Bleach"..
Its a v enjoyable animation..
Thumbs up!!
Nvr heared abt this book b4??
Hey u~ Sua Ku Ah??
hahahaha.. oopss.. =P
Years ago, I used to hab a small booklet on this topic..
Given to me by my sister, which is of cos, Joyce.
But its being left at my prev hse..
Being invited to join Jean at Charis Methodist Church for 40 Days of Purpose..
Went with Jie, Francis & ZQ..
Attended the 1st session this morn @ 11plus..
Was v tired & a little bit late for the session..
But I didn't doze off ok??
(not that i wanted to be late wor.. but i worked until past 12am the nite b4.. so i was really v tired ok.. heex.. nuttin but excuses.. but its the truth lor.. hahahaha..)
Don't ask me what I've learnt from the session today..
Sshhh..
Its my secret..
Don't tell you..
Want to know more abt it??
Go attend the session yourself to find out lor..
Its up to me to know..
For you to find out..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. =P
Jie gave me a "The Faith-Sharing New Testament With The Psalms"..
ZQ says the bible is better than my "Harry Potter" series..
But how to compare leh when ZQ nvr read a single book on "Harry Potter"..
Nonsense him.. hahahaha.. =P
But now I'm stuck in between..
Dunno which one to choose..
I've so many comics waiting to be read..
Lots of new storybooks waiting to be read..
"The Faith-Sharing New Testament With The Psalms" waiting to be read..
"The Purpose Driven Life" waiting to be read..
Oh No~
Which one should i choose 1st leh??
Think I beta continue watching my animation "Bleach"..
Its a v enjoyable animation..
Thumbs up!!
Friday, August 03, 2007
I CAN DO IT!! JUST WAIT & SEE!!
My boss = negative, grouchy
Me = interest level high, morale level low
Haiz..
My "buddy" is going on “sudden aka last minute” marriage leave next week..
We’ve got a couple of projects calling for tender next week..
All he has left for me is loads of unfinished work to clear next week..
Yet he has not given me any form of guidance to let me live thru next week..
Next week..
Survivor series..
Stay tuned to Channel “G”..
“G” for Gracie..
My boss is getting more & more grouchy..
My boss is getting more & more negative..
How I fear she’ll give up & just tender her resignation..
I’m already trying very hard to learn everything the hard way..
I’m learning the ropes by getting “arrowed” by countless mgrs..
“Lost of blood due to multiple wounds” left me so weak in the body & mind..
I don’t care how you people see me..
I’ll prove to all of you that this job is not only meant for a guy..
This is now MY JOB & I CAN DO IT BETTER THAN ALL OF YOU!!
So much for shouting out loud my grievances..
So tiring..
Farting also won’t make me so tired..
Might as well give a good & loud fart now..
PROOT!!! PROOT!!! PROOT!!!
Oh no..
Something seems to have leaked out from my asshole..
Hmmm..
(^_^) *blush*
Me = interest level high, morale level low
Haiz..
My "buddy" is going on “sudden aka last minute” marriage leave next week..
We’ve got a couple of projects calling for tender next week..
All he has left for me is loads of unfinished work to clear next week..
Yet he has not given me any form of guidance to let me live thru next week..
Next week..
Survivor series..
Stay tuned to Channel “G”..
“G” for Gracie..
My boss is getting more & more grouchy..
My boss is getting more & more negative..
How I fear she’ll give up & just tender her resignation..
I’m already trying very hard to learn everything the hard way..
I’m learning the ropes by getting “arrowed” by countless mgrs..
“Lost of blood due to multiple wounds” left me so weak in the body & mind..
I don’t care how you people see me..
I’ll prove to all of you that this job is not only meant for a guy..
This is now MY JOB & I CAN DO IT BETTER THAN ALL OF YOU!!
So much for shouting out loud my grievances..
So tiring..
Farting also won’t make me so tired..
Might as well give a good & loud fart now..
PROOT!!! PROOT!!! PROOT!!!
Oh no..
Something seems to have leaked out from my asshole..
Hmmm..
(^_^) *blush*
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Daily Thots
wrkin life has been very very stressful for me..
alot of problems have arisen recently..
i really start to query myself abt my capabilities..
is it me or is it the ppl involved in the project that causes the problems??
haiz..
sometimes i just wished i am as capable as my sister..
she's so capable and has such a good career..
its all because she had studied hard when she was young..
but there's nuttin i can do or chng abt my past..
all i can do is make the best out of everything i have now..
haiz..
so much easier said than done..
just like farting..
alot of problems have arisen recently..
i really start to query myself abt my capabilities..
is it me or is it the ppl involved in the project that causes the problems??
haiz..
sometimes i just wished i am as capable as my sister..
she's so capable and has such a good career..
its all because she had studied hard when she was young..
but there's nuttin i can do or chng abt my past..
all i can do is make the best out of everything i have now..
haiz..
so much easier said than done..
just like farting..
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Msg In A Pic
after a tiring day at work..
decided to check out my Friendster late at nite..
had a new message..
being invited to view someone's pics..
a family photo without my kids..
wonder when was it taken..
noticed a photo that caught my eye..
someone that looks like "her" hugging him in the pic..
any meaning in it??
any message trying to be conveyed here??
*lost for words*
decided to check out my Friendster late at nite..
had a new message..
being invited to view someone's pics..
a family photo without my kids..
wonder when was it taken..
noticed a photo that caught my eye..
someone that looks like "her" hugging him in the pic..
any meaning in it??
any message trying to be conveyed here??
*lost for words*
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
Thots Of The Day
Stress level has risen a lot in this new job. Everything is so brand new to me. Contractors, colleagues, job scope, etc. A lot of things were not properly done up in the past. Now, I’ve to “scoop the shit”.
Pathetic~
Is this what I wanted? I can’t possible turn back now, can I?
After a site meeting at Compass Point today, I took a cab from there to Parkway Parade. The taxi uncle drove a much longer route. I sensed the difference as the route was so much different from last night when I took a cab from home to Parkway Parade. I called and told Roy about it and he helped me lodge a complaint to the call centre. Then he asked me to return call to Winnie and let her know more details. I called and when I spoke to Winnie, she asked “You are Grace, Roy’s wife?” Without much hesitation, I replied “Yes.”
Oh no! What did I do? Why do I still admit to others that I am his wife? And why did he still acknowledge me as his wife?
Surprisingly, I didn’t feel angry. What kind of feelings I had at that time? It’s still a question mark as I can’t recall it now.
I had quite a long chat with Roy today. He made me laughed my blues away for the moment.
Haiz…
Why am I still so attached to him? Why do I feel a sense of comfort after talking to him?
I doubt it is the love I still have for him that makes me feel happy talking to him. It’s the comfort he brings to me as a friend. As a friend, he does know how to cheer me up even though he is also feeling tired after driving for so many hours on the road today.
Perhaps he is also the reason why I can’t really commit into another relationship (because I fear failure).
Ok! What’s over is over, no point bringing up the past again. But I’ll very much want to keep him in my life forever, as a very close friend of mine.
Pathetic~
Is this what I wanted? I can’t possible turn back now, can I?
After a site meeting at Compass Point today, I took a cab from there to Parkway Parade. The taxi uncle drove a much longer route. I sensed the difference as the route was so much different from last night when I took a cab from home to Parkway Parade. I called and told Roy about it and he helped me lodge a complaint to the call centre. Then he asked me to return call to Winnie and let her know more details. I called and when I spoke to Winnie, she asked “You are Grace, Roy’s wife?” Without much hesitation, I replied “Yes.”
Oh no! What did I do? Why do I still admit to others that I am his wife? And why did he still acknowledge me as his wife?
Surprisingly, I didn’t feel angry. What kind of feelings I had at that time? It’s still a question mark as I can’t recall it now.
I had quite a long chat with Roy today. He made me laughed my blues away for the moment.
Haiz…
Why am I still so attached to him? Why do I feel a sense of comfort after talking to him?
I doubt it is the love I still have for him that makes me feel happy talking to him. It’s the comfort he brings to me as a friend. As a friend, he does know how to cheer me up even though he is also feeling tired after driving for so many hours on the road today.
Perhaps he is also the reason why I can’t really commit into another relationship (because I fear failure).
Ok! What’s over is over, no point bringing up the past again. But I’ll very much want to keep him in my life forever, as a very close friend of mine.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Outing [15 Jul 07]
Movie Plot
As his fifth year at Hogwarts approaches, 15-year-old Harry Potter is in full-blown adolescence, complete with regular outbursts of rage, a nearly debilitating crush, and the blooming of a powerful sense of rebellion. It's been yet another infuriating and boring summer with the despicable Dursleys, this time with minimal contact from our hero's non-Muggle friends from school.
As his fifth year at Hogwarts approaches, 15-year-old Harry Potter is in full-blown adolescence, complete with regular outbursts of rage, a nearly debilitating crush, and the blooming of a powerful sense of rebellion. It's been yet another infuriating and boring summer with the despicable Dursleys, this time with minimal contact from our hero's non-Muggle friends from school.
Watched the movies with ZQ, Sean, Rina, Dean, Catherine, Ah Teck, Xiao Ping and Xing Xing at Lido.
They were a bit disappointed with the movies as they expected more ‘fighting’ scenes. I didn’t expect much from this movie as I thought it’ll most probably be like the book, very ‘lengthy’.
Overall, not a bad show. Quite hilarious at times. But 2 hours plus show, my back hurts man.
They were a bit disappointed with the movies as they expected more ‘fighting’ scenes. I didn’t expect much from this movie as I thought it’ll most probably be like the book, very ‘lengthy’.
Overall, not a bad show. Quite hilarious at times. But 2 hours plus show, my back hurts man.
Went to Sake Sushi for dinner. We ate like some ‘hungry cannibals’. (hahahaha)
Only took 50% of the food (the plates) that we ate. The remaining 50% on the table, remains unseen. (heex)
Went to Dembsy Road for some drinks with ZQ, Sean, Rina, Dean, Ziao Ping and Xing Xing. We ordered carrot cake and berry cheese cake. Yummy! I liked the berry cheese cake a lot. The cheese melts in your mouth. Wooh~
Only took 50% of the food (the plates) that we ate. The remaining 50% on the table, remains unseen. (heex)
Went to Dembsy Road for some drinks with ZQ, Sean, Rina, Dean, Ziao Ping and Xing Xing. We ordered carrot cake and berry cheese cake. Yummy! I liked the berry cheese cake a lot. The cheese melts in your mouth. Wooh~
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Stress?
I’ve been really tied up at work. The pace at my new working place is so much more faster than the pace in my previous company. In the past, I’m always rushing reports. Now, I’m always somewhere out there doing coordination work. Then when it comes to doing my paperwork in the office, the day is almost gone. Time is never enough for me now, as I’m still new to the environment and the job scope. I must buck up and learn the ropes faster, Jiayou!!!
Can I make it? I’ve been asking myself this question for the past week. Believe in what I can do and I can do it. It that the correct spirit?
One thing good is I still enjoys my work, hope to keep the momentum there for long.
Next Tuesday is the company’s D&D. Everyone in the office have been talking about it since Day 1 when I joined. They’re all very spontaneous about this annual event, unlike my previous company. I think till today, I’m the only one who hasn’t gone for costume renting. Some of them even went to buy clothes and shoes for this event. I’m been reminded every single day to go and either rent costumes or perhaps buy something simple for the event. But I’m warned not to go without even dressing up or else the GM will “mark” me for the entire year.
Stressed AHHHHHHHHH!!!!
My sim card is corrupted. Hasn’t been able to receive all the sms for the whole week thou I can still send sms, call and receive calls. Got to go and have my sim card replaced later.
Troublesome man…
Tomorrow night suppose to go to PWP outet to supervise the work. But due to some submission problems, the landlord won’t let us have the permit to start work on Sunday night. Haiz. All work has to be stopped. Monday 9am will be having a meeting with the landlord to resolve this issue. Hope they can grant us the permit to start work, if not the whole operations will be greatly affected.
Tsk Tsk Tsk… Stressed Out~
Can I make it? I’ve been asking myself this question for the past week. Believe in what I can do and I can do it. It that the correct spirit?
One thing good is I still enjoys my work, hope to keep the momentum there for long.
Next Tuesday is the company’s D&D. Everyone in the office have been talking about it since Day 1 when I joined. They’re all very spontaneous about this annual event, unlike my previous company. I think till today, I’m the only one who hasn’t gone for costume renting. Some of them even went to buy clothes and shoes for this event. I’m been reminded every single day to go and either rent costumes or perhaps buy something simple for the event. But I’m warned not to go without even dressing up or else the GM will “mark” me for the entire year.
Stressed AHHHHHHHHH!!!!
My sim card is corrupted. Hasn’t been able to receive all the sms for the whole week thou I can still send sms, call and receive calls. Got to go and have my sim card replaced later.
Troublesome man…
Tomorrow night suppose to go to PWP outet to supervise the work. But due to some submission problems, the landlord won’t let us have the permit to start work on Sunday night. Haiz. All work has to be stopped. Monday 9am will be having a meeting with the landlord to resolve this issue. Hope they can grant us the permit to start work, if not the whole operations will be greatly affected.
Tsk Tsk Tsk… Stressed Out~
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Tired of Explaining
Suddenly I’ve a comment for my post
It all feels so unusual
Not that I want to fight back here
Just that I want to make things simpler
Whichever or whatever way you want to think or feel
I can’t stop your thoughts from running wild
Sad to say
It’s the truth
Without Kailin's existence around Roy
Cedric might never have appeared in my life
Simple as abc
It all feels so unusual
Not that I want to fight back here
Just that I want to make things simpler
Whichever or whatever way you want to think or feel
I can’t stop your thoughts from running wild
Sad to say
It’s the truth
Without Kailin's existence around Roy
Cedric might never have appeared in my life
Simple as abc
20/06/07 @ 630pm
Today is the most unhappiest day that I’ve gone through this week.
Incident 1
10am went Mango sale with Edna & Peiling. I chose about 8pcs to try-on but one of the malay staff said I can only try-out maximum 5pcs. Therefore, the remaining 3pcs she’ll put on reserved for me. When I came out from the fitting room with the 4pcs that I didn’t want, and wanted to try-out the 3pcs that I had reserved, another staff (Filipino) told me that I have to re-queue. I was a bit “shocked” when I was asked to re-queue as there wasn’t anyone in the queue at all. I asked the staff (Filipino), “Are you sure you want me to re-queue when there’s no one in the queue?” She said yes. Ok! Fine! I walked in to the fitting room, collected my stuff and pass the piece that I wanted to one of the staff (malay) and told her to help me reserve that piece as I want to try-on more pieces. So I went to re-queue and said “Ok. Now I’m in the queue again, can I have the reserved pieces?” Here comes another interesting part. They couldn’t find the pieces that I had reserved. Then they started “taiji” saying who put what back or who didn’t mention the clothes left on the table are reserved pieces. The one who actually took my reserved pieces just stood there and kept quiet with her head down. I was so damn pissed off with them and I just told them I don’t even want the piece I had tried and stormed off.
Incident 2
I was doing some filing work when I knocked my head against the sharp corner of a table. Ouch! So damn painful.
Incident 3
Yesterday rushed out more than 160 over circular letters to our tenants. Some were sent to their outlet here while 100 over were sent out by normal mail this morning.
Today 5plus when I was running through my emails while my bosses were not in the office, noticed there was a revised copy of the circular and I was supposed to use the later one. Shit! I informed my boss and she said to retract the letters. But how to? So I called our in-house despatch and they said they already sent out the letters to the post office today at 3pm. Oh no! suddenly today they were so efficient.
Haiz..
What is wrong with me? What is wrong with me? What is wrong with me?
I am not slacking on my work, but how could I have made such a blunder? How could I have missed out that email sent to me by my boss?
This reflects so badly on me as it such thing had never happened to me before. Now that it has happened after I tendered my resignation and while I am serving my 1-month notice to the company. Oh shit! This is bad. I feel very bad and lost.
Anymore worst thing coming along?
Incident 1
10am went Mango sale with Edna & Peiling. I chose about 8pcs to try-on but one of the malay staff said I can only try-out maximum 5pcs. Therefore, the remaining 3pcs she’ll put on reserved for me. When I came out from the fitting room with the 4pcs that I didn’t want, and wanted to try-out the 3pcs that I had reserved, another staff (Filipino) told me that I have to re-queue. I was a bit “shocked” when I was asked to re-queue as there wasn’t anyone in the queue at all. I asked the staff (Filipino), “Are you sure you want me to re-queue when there’s no one in the queue?” She said yes. Ok! Fine! I walked in to the fitting room, collected my stuff and pass the piece that I wanted to one of the staff (malay) and told her to help me reserve that piece as I want to try-on more pieces. So I went to re-queue and said “Ok. Now I’m in the queue again, can I have the reserved pieces?” Here comes another interesting part. They couldn’t find the pieces that I had reserved. Then they started “taiji” saying who put what back or who didn’t mention the clothes left on the table are reserved pieces. The one who actually took my reserved pieces just stood there and kept quiet with her head down. I was so damn pissed off with them and I just told them I don’t even want the piece I had tried and stormed off.
Incident 2
I was doing some filing work when I knocked my head against the sharp corner of a table. Ouch! So damn painful.
Incident 3
Yesterday rushed out more than 160 over circular letters to our tenants. Some were sent to their outlet here while 100 over were sent out by normal mail this morning.
Today 5plus when I was running through my emails while my bosses were not in the office, noticed there was a revised copy of the circular and I was supposed to use the later one. Shit! I informed my boss and she said to retract the letters. But how to? So I called our in-house despatch and they said they already sent out the letters to the post office today at 3pm. Oh no! suddenly today they were so efficient.
Haiz..
What is wrong with me? What is wrong with me? What is wrong with me?
I am not slacking on my work, but how could I have made such a blunder? How could I have missed out that email sent to me by my boss?
This reflects so badly on me as it such thing had never happened to me before. Now that it has happened after I tendered my resignation and while I am serving my 1-month notice to the company. Oh shit! This is bad. I feel very bad and lost.
Anymore worst thing coming along?
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
What's Wrong?
What is wrong with me? Have I not got over him or have I not got over my past with him?
Wendy, Roy’s sister, is getting married in Jan ’08, and I’m being invited. The thing is, I don’t know if I should go or not.
2 weeks ago I got to know it from Roy’s mum that Wendy will be getting married in Jan ’08. She asked if I know about it and I told her I didn’t know about it. She said perhaps Wendy’s too busy and haven’t started informing anybody yet. I don’t know we came to which part when we were talking about where I’ll be seated then his mum said, “You’re no longer our family so you definitely can’t sit on our table.” Ok! Great! What a way to put it out to me. Those words really pierced through my heart and hurt me. Then when I asked if “it” (that piece of shit who has been clinging onto Roy even though I was still married to Roy at that time) is going, she said most probably. Then when I asked where is “it” going to be seated, she kept quiet. Ok! I know the answer already.
Last week, Wendy called me to inform me about her wedding. According to Wendy, her mum says in order to avoid clashing or something like that, to put me at a table behind the pillar. Wendy told her that there’s no pillar in the restaurant that she chose. Shit lor! You might as well don’t invite me, right? Want to invite me yet want to hide me behind the pillar?
Main reason is because “it” is going and they’re worried that me and “it” might clash heads-on. Come on lor, then hide her behind the pillar so that I cannot see her. Why hide me? Ridiculous!
Interesting part, Wendy’s mum did tell me cos now I am not part of their family so therefore they cannot place me on the VIP table with them. Then can someone please tell me who the hell that “it” is to sit on the VIP table? Soon-to-be wife of Roy’s?
I asked Wendy if “it” is only a friend to Roy, then why should she be seated at the VIP table? Unless she is someone to Roy, then of course can put her at that table, right? No words were said to explain the relationship between Roy and “it”. Wendy told me she don’t know what’s the relationship between the “it” and Roy as till today Roy haven’t tell them anything.
I know if its another woman who appears beside Roy, I’ll be able to take it. But if it’s that “it”, I doubt I can. I thought I’ve already got over her existence, but I don’t think so. I hate her to the core.
Haiz…
What’s the conclusion? To go or not to go?
Think my conclusion is, kill that bitch before the wedding dinner!
Wendy, Roy’s sister, is getting married in Jan ’08, and I’m being invited. The thing is, I don’t know if I should go or not.
2 weeks ago I got to know it from Roy’s mum that Wendy will be getting married in Jan ’08. She asked if I know about it and I told her I didn’t know about it. She said perhaps Wendy’s too busy and haven’t started informing anybody yet. I don’t know we came to which part when we were talking about where I’ll be seated then his mum said, “You’re no longer our family so you definitely can’t sit on our table.” Ok! Great! What a way to put it out to me. Those words really pierced through my heart and hurt me. Then when I asked if “it” (that piece of shit who has been clinging onto Roy even though I was still married to Roy at that time) is going, she said most probably. Then when I asked where is “it” going to be seated, she kept quiet. Ok! I know the answer already.
Last week, Wendy called me to inform me about her wedding. According to Wendy, her mum says in order to avoid clashing or something like that, to put me at a table behind the pillar. Wendy told her that there’s no pillar in the restaurant that she chose. Shit lor! You might as well don’t invite me, right? Want to invite me yet want to hide me behind the pillar?
Main reason is because “it” is going and they’re worried that me and “it” might clash heads-on. Come on lor, then hide her behind the pillar so that I cannot see her. Why hide me? Ridiculous!
Interesting part, Wendy’s mum did tell me cos now I am not part of their family so therefore they cannot place me on the VIP table with them. Then can someone please tell me who the hell that “it” is to sit on the VIP table? Soon-to-be wife of Roy’s?
I asked Wendy if “it” is only a friend to Roy, then why should she be seated at the VIP table? Unless she is someone to Roy, then of course can put her at that table, right? No words were said to explain the relationship between Roy and “it”. Wendy told me she don’t know what’s the relationship between the “it” and Roy as till today Roy haven’t tell them anything.
I know if its another woman who appears beside Roy, I’ll be able to take it. But if it’s that “it”, I doubt I can. I thought I’ve already got over her existence, but I don’t think so. I hate her to the core.
Haiz…
What’s the conclusion? To go or not to go?
Think my conclusion is, kill that bitch before the wedding dinner!
Monday, June 18, 2007
Sad
I hate the feeling of people having false assumptions on me. They assume this, they assume that. They only look on the surface of things when they never even bother to look deeper into the matter and ponder over it why certain things happen this way.
I felt very sad and hurt when I got to know that even the girlfriend I trusted so much, also misunderstood me.
I couldn’t control my tears last night when I thought about my life again. Thou I’m not the most pathetic person in the world, but neither am I the most luckiest person in the world.
I begin to think about my life. Since young, I’ve never felt loved by my parents. It was always my neighbour cum grandma who looked after me and loved me. It was my sister who gave me the love I wanted from my family. Till the very day I found the man in my life, he took over the role of providing the love I needed. Yet, happy times never last. Eventually, things started to change. Thou many chances were given in between, there came a time when I decided to let go of all.
Now I thought I felt happier with friends around me, but that becomes a question mark again. People whom I trusted, starts to have false assumptions on me. I hated it.
Being happy or being sad is just another form of decision-making.
What’s my decision? I chose to be sad.
I felt very sad and hurt when I got to know that even the girlfriend I trusted so much, also misunderstood me.
I couldn’t control my tears last night when I thought about my life again. Thou I’m not the most pathetic person in the world, but neither am I the most luckiest person in the world.
I begin to think about my life. Since young, I’ve never felt loved by my parents. It was always my neighbour cum grandma who looked after me and loved me. It was my sister who gave me the love I wanted from my family. Till the very day I found the man in my life, he took over the role of providing the love I needed. Yet, happy times never last. Eventually, things started to change. Thou many chances were given in between, there came a time when I decided to let go of all.
Now I thought I felt happier with friends around me, but that becomes a question mark again. People whom I trusted, starts to have false assumptions on me. I hated it.
Being happy or being sad is just another form of decision-making.
What’s my decision? I chose to be sad.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Tired
Why ask me to give assurances when I can’t even give myself any form of assurances?
To me, I’ve always wanted a very dear friend to be with me. There’s nothing much I want to see in my own future. I’m happy with my current life now. I don’t want to fall into another failed relationship anymore. It’s just too hard too difficult to pick myself back again.
Last night I came to a realisation that what I thought I’ve already let go may not be what it seems to be. I’ve been talking so much about him recently. Last night when I saw Celeste wore the wedding gown, tears were about to fill up in my eyes. I suddenly remembered that I was once been promised that he’ll let me wear the gown and that he’ll let me wear it before I turn 30. But now all that was said has become memories. I’ll never get to wear the gown with him. The person who’ll be wearing with him will not be me, it’ll be another “her”. Everything has turned into history and a pack of lies.
Too many things have been happening to me recently till I suddenly just felt like giving it all up. Stress level from work/friends/family/financial.
I can’t fall asleep thou I’m feeling very tired. I feel sick and tired.
Oh please. I need a break. Can someone just take me away from this place?
To me, I’ve always wanted a very dear friend to be with me. There’s nothing much I want to see in my own future. I’m happy with my current life now. I don’t want to fall into another failed relationship anymore. It’s just too hard too difficult to pick myself back again.
Last night I came to a realisation that what I thought I’ve already let go may not be what it seems to be. I’ve been talking so much about him recently. Last night when I saw Celeste wore the wedding gown, tears were about to fill up in my eyes. I suddenly remembered that I was once been promised that he’ll let me wear the gown and that he’ll let me wear it before I turn 30. But now all that was said has become memories. I’ll never get to wear the gown with him. The person who’ll be wearing with him will not be me, it’ll be another “her”. Everything has turned into history and a pack of lies.
Too many things have been happening to me recently till I suddenly just felt like giving it all up. Stress level from work/friends/family/financial.
I can’t fall asleep thou I’m feeling very tired. I feel sick and tired.
Oh please. I need a break. Can someone just take me away from this place?
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