Praise The Lord~

The Day I Received Lord Jesus Christ

[[17th November 2007]]

Whatever....

I know that since I've decided to let God handle my work issues, I shouldn't be thinking so much about it again. But I really wanted..... Aiyah.... Don't know what I want nor what I want to say.

Am I such a loser? I can't even decide what I want in life. Ask me what is it that I really want to do, what is that that I hope to achieve, or what is it that I wish to see myself in? I can't answer all these questions too.

Aiyah.... Just so tired of myself. So indecisive. So useless. So................

Whatever..................

Daily Thots

Went to WMC wif Jie, Andrea & Adrienne for d 11.30am service. Adrienne was a bit "noisy" & Andrea was a bit restless today. Naughty gals. But everything was still under control & we still managed to finish d service without much hiccups.

Praise The Lord~

Today Pastor Wendy Watson said something abt "When there is love, there will not be filth & stench." "You Ai Jiu Mei You Chou". A very touching story behind this phrase.

Praise The Lord~

Oh, today's worship session I also sang together. I felt good. Don't really know how to explain d feelings but I sort of felt "connected". Connected to God perhaps? Hmmm...

Went Sembawang Park with Jie, Andrea & Adrienne. The gals had a great time thr. As usual at d initial part, Adrienne refused to walk on d sand on her own (scare dirty her feet) & wana to be carried around. But after a while, managed to convinced her to play on her own. The gals had so much fun that they requested me to bring them bck thr again.

We had fun today becos Jie made d effort to bring us ard. Thank you Jie for accompanyin & fetching us ard today. We sure do really love you a lot.

Thank you Father for blessing me with 2 beautiful gals, a very loving sister & a caring bro-in-law. I know whatever happens in the future, You made it happen bcos You want me to learn something out of it. Kindly bless me with the strength to overcome all obstacles. Amen~

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Daily Thots

I had a very tough day today. 1 of my working colleague gave me a very hard time today. I felt so fustrated until I went off to d Ladies to cry. I felt better after that. I was thinking, perhaps it's because i didn't seek God's blessings today thus my day was not a smooth one. I started to think of Pastor Prince's words. To acknowledge my own feelings but do not act on them. Thus, I chose to forgive d person who irritated me.

Crying is another way of releasing my stress. No worries. I always/usually feel better after crying it out.

Dear Lord Jesus,
Kindly bless the person with more kindness towards others. Let him realise that his attitude towards others is wrong.
Kindly take away my anger and forgive him.
Amen~

Thank You Lord Jesus

Went to Jie’s house wif ZQ today to discuss abt job vacancies. Then we started to chat abt my prev blog. Then Jie suggested that we go to The Third Place today as it’ll be d last service alrdy. The Third Place is going to be relocated to another place. Wif no programs in mind today, we agreed (thou I used to find excuses to not attend services).

Before proceeding to The Third Place, we went to Leisure Park Kallang as I needed to take a look @ my job site. We passed by a store and somehow or rather, it attracted us in. We bought a “plain” jigsaw puzzle for Jean for her as a bday gift. We’re going to pen in our wishes for her on it & let her fix up d puzzle herself to see wad we had written for her. Next, we passed by a gift shop which the cross pendants attracted my interest. Jie asked me if I wanted one & I told her casually that I’ll liked to have one & also pointed out d design I wanted. Then I moved off to my store to check on my contractors leaving both of them there. When I came back to look for them, Jie had alrdy bought me d cross necklace that I wanted. I felt so happy & Jie helped me to put it on.

Guess what happened today? I received Christ Jesus together wif ZQ @ The Third Place. Pastor Alvin Chan prayed wif us, together wif Jie & Francis.

Oh, just to share. During d worshipping, there were a couple of times when I felt like my tears were filling my eyes. I had to shut my eyes tight & keep telling myself not to be a drama mama.

(^0^)

Anyway, I felt happy today. Can’t explain why also but I know God has something planned for me.

Thank you Lord Jesus for forgiving my sins & accepting me back in your arms again.
Praise the Lord! Amen~

Praise The Lord

14 Nov 07
my boss called me @ 11pm & talked on d fone till 1150pm. purpose of call was to sort of hint me wads gg to happen to me d next day. she said alot alot of things which frightened me & in d end i slept @ 3am.

15 Nov 07
was listening to mp3 on d train ride to work. was jamming my ears wif d fast pace songs to try to calm myself dw due to ytd's conversation. when it came to d Gospel song "The One Thing" i felt so calm. in d end I kept repeating d song. when it came to Potong Pasir station. suddenly i had d urge to pray. i said a prayer & i finished d prayer @ Dohby Ghuat station. reached ofc & saw my boss's boss face super duper black in colour. shit! thunderstorm expected. in d end. d day ended w/o any thunderstorm. @ abt 7pm i played my Gospel cd in d ofc. my boss asked me to lower dw d music (thou it was alrdy v soft) cos she dun wan her boss to come out & scold me (which she felt will be d case). aft she left & her boss came out of her room asking "Who is d one playing Gospel songs?" my heart was tinkin "oh shit"!. i answered her softly saying its me. she turned to me & chatted wif me for awhile & also asked me to lend her d cd as well. & b4 she left d ofc she even thanked me for sharing such nice music in d ofc. all i could reply her was "ok".

hahahahahahaha. too frightened to answer her properly. =)

finished work @ abt 10pm. had an urge to look for Jie to pray for me. an urge to accept Lord Jesus into my life. but Jie did not ans my calls. it's ok. perhaps it wasn't d rite time yet.

reached hme said a short prayer. thanked Lord Jesus for making my day a smooth one as I've talked to him in d morn. thanked Lord Jesus for answering my prayer. Amen!

Dwarf or Dove

Hey Hey Hey~

It's time to blog again. It's been quite sometime since I last blogged ah?

Today on leave as I have an appt with the skin doc (Dr. Jennifer Foo) @ Mount Elizabeth Medical Centre. Having a terrible breakout on my face, really terrible. When the doc saw me, she told me mine was severe & asked me how could i have waited so long then decided to consult a doc? Wanted to tell her why but I couldn't answer myself @ that time too. Was it because I don't have the time or I don't have the moni? Beats me too since I'm such a vain gal.

Doc's advice was to see her every week for the first month to monitor the progress of my treatment. Have t stop using my Clinique (anti-blemish) products with immediate effect. Oh gosh! I just bought the products about a month ago. To throw them away seems like a waste. Any takers out there?

Went to Alpha course @ WMC with Jie & ZQ. The dvd went retarded today. Made me lose my concentration leh. Then finished watchind the video clip at about 9pm before we were seperated into our groups again.

Jason mentioned about Jesus appearing as dove but pronounced it as dwarf. Made us laughed so loudly. Ice-breaker guy indeed.

Discussion today was about the Holy Spirit (which we missed the session last Saturday).

I asked a question but my question wasn't really being answered. What's the difference between the Holy Spirit and the Guardian Angel?

Haiz..... =(

Then the group mentioned something about being "slained". Sounds eerie to me. Don't think I want to be "slained".

Hmmm... Jason tried to get rid of a "myth" I had about the 7th month thingy.

Jason's "patent" Quote of the day:
If it's true, it's true for all.
If it's not true for all, it's not true at all.

Errr... Try harder next time.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Oh! I've something to say about tonight. The food ain't nice and there were 2 inconsiderate facilitators who were talking during the video clip. They only stopped until Jie turned over and signal them to keep quiet.

More to say about my thoughts, but I'm tired le. Will try to blog more tomorrow.

Too late to reply your sms le Jie. Good nite & sweet dreams to you. Love you always.

Sick & Tired of EVERYTHING

I'm having a terrible headache. It's a piercing pain at the top right corner of my skull. I really hate this feeling. Take panadol already still doesn't work at all.

Shit!

Must be due to the stress at work. I really hate that back-stabber. I really hate that fella who pretended to be nice to me yet at my back, during his confrontation with my boss and the HR Director, dragged me into the picture. Instead of apologising over his poor performance at work, he puts all the blame on me. Say that I'm not being able to help him at all and thus cause him to be overloaded and stressed over work.

I hate this I hate this I hate this!!!

Then here I am guessing what did I do wrong to lose a best friend's concern over me. What did I do wrong? Why did she start to turn so cold towards me?

What's wrong with my life again? Everything seems to hit me so hard.

I've been a very hardworking staff at work. I really put in my best to do everything and to ease other's burden. Yet, I get it left and right on my back.

I know I've been neglecting my friends and family. But all I wanted was to concentrate on my career first. I want to be more stable first before I..............................

For all the favourite gym time I've given up and for all the fun time I have given up to be with my friends, all because I wanted to be better in my career, seems to be a wrong choice.

Nevermind la. I'm tired. I can't get the whole world to please me neither can I pleased the whole world.

Sometimes I just wished I had died the last time I tried to die.

Really damn sick and tired of everything.

So hard to be in other people's good books.

So Tired!!!

so many things to accomplished..
so many expectations on me..
so many deadlines for me..
so many these and that..
so many people to entertain..
so many tasks to complete everyday..
so many restrictions..
so many so many so many..

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I am not a superwoman..
I am just a simple gal with a simple goal in life..
I just wana earn more money to provide a better life for my kids..

Haiz..

Think I so powerful meh?
Think I really so strong meh?

I am so tired so tired so tired..

HelpPPpPppPppPppPPPppPppPPppPppPpppPPPppPPPppPppPppPppPPppPPpppPp!!!!

Daily Thots

As I was re-organising my photos in my FS account, I glanced thru all the photos and suddenly realised how time has passed by me at such a quick pace.

It was Dec 05 when I left him.

Looking back at what I had gone thru and what I am going thru now, is life getting better for me?

Career wise I'm definitely getting better, and I've more time to get myself familiarised with work. Of cos, personal time with family and friends becomes lesser. Time spent with Andrea and Adrienne gets lesser, but I know we'll get to enjoy more quality time together when I'm more stable in my career.

Emotionally I'm more stable now as I've a evergreen pillar by my side always. (^o^)

I've to get stronger mentally as I always encountered alot of difficulties at my new workplace. They don't come 1 by 1. They come at a shot and I'm expected to resolve all no matter if it's new / outstanding works. It just seems like I'm the only executive in my department.

Haiz..

I always tell myself. They can stab me or bang me on the wall and make me bleed. But after that, they must call for medic to attend to my wounds and not continue to kick me out to the road and let me get rammed down by cars mah. This will only cause me to die instead of making me suffer more leh.

Er.. Chim right? Must hear and see the way I define it in person then you can understand what I'm trying to say.

hahahahahaha..

Anyway, it's ok. I'll learn it the hard way and it'll make me a better man.

Er.. Better woman I mean. =)

What Are Your Thots On "Jesus Died For You"

Yoo Hoo~

It's the time of the day again. What time is it? It's blogging time!

hahahahahahaha.. =)

Today is Thursday, which is Alpha course at Wesley Methodist Church.
Before I begin my thoughts for the night, I've to thank Francis for getting me a bible of my own.

Thank you Brother-in-law. =)

Ok. Back to my views and thoughts for tonight.

Tonight's topic for the group sharing session was:
"What are your thoughts when you hear people mentioned to you that Jesus died for you?"

As usual la, I was quiet throughout the session lor. Shy mah, but in fact, scared that they will noticed the big pimple on my left eye (just below my eyebrow). Eeks!

hahahahahahahahaha.. =P

My turn again and my answer was:
Jesus very "Wei Da" lor.

Ok. No right or wrong answer here ah.

It was said that we've to accept Jesus Christ and The Lord as our God because God sent his only Son, Jesus Christ, to come and die for us to atone for our sins. Which God will die for his followers?

Hmmm.. My thoughts ah?

Err.. Jesus Christ is like Tang Sang Zhang (Tripiktra.. or something like that.. I don't know how to spell his name la). Only that Tang Sang Zhang did not die for his followers la. But he went West (on foot and at times ride his horse la) to collect all the scriptures in order to save mankind. Sure some people will ask me how true is this and will say this is only a myth or legend, right? But you people never watch drama series meh? It's always screened like that mah. If these were untrue, how come there is Sun Wukong, Zhu Ba Jie, Zhi Zhu Jing etc?

"Passion of the Christ" is based on true story as what you all will say. Then how come "Xi You Ji (Journey to the West)" cannot be based on true story leh?

Paisey ah. Just that people tend to do a lot of comparisons and have a lot of questions and arguements before they actually convert to be a Christian. I've to make sure my doubts are cleared before I make any decisions on whether to exchange my bucket of water with God and also in turn let go my existing bucket of water. I definitely won't want to follow a religion for the sake of following. I must be sure and this takes time.

Jie must be patient with me ok?

Oh, before I forget but I need to say this out or else I very "buey song". Some people are so rude, no manners. No matter how tired you are, if you attend some course at anywhere. Be it if it's at a church, a temple or even an institution, please don't sleep there ok? Cannot stand the attitude of these people. No manners I still must say again. I'm also very tired after a day at work lor. At most, I'll only keep yawning and move my body here and there at times, but I won't sleep there lor. Next time want to sleep, please go home and sleep. The church is not for you to go there and sleep. Haiz. Young people nowadays don't know what is respect.

Anyway, I've had a very tough week at work recently. Perhaps I should start praying for a better tomorrow?

Hmmm.. Wait la. Slowly la. Some things cannot be rushed.

Anyway, God Loves Us & I Love All Of You~

=)

Peace

Went to Wesley Methodist Church and attended an Alpha course with Jie & ZQ. Oh! Thank you Jie for paying the $20 for me thou that’s what is left in your wallet today. But, nevermind la. Tomorrow you still can withdraw somemore out from your bank account.

hahahahahahaha..

During the video clip I nearly fell asleep. No choice la because I really felt super tired today.

After the video clip, the people were divided into a few groups. Every group (ours is Group 4) had to do a sharing session within our own group and we had to find a partner and self-introduce ourself to him. The person who introduced me to the group was called Jason. He had no choice but to tell the group what I said to him. My purpose of going there tonight was “tag along for the sake of tag along”.

hahahahahaha…
*faint*

Then came the sharing about your understanding of “Who is Jesus” or perhaps even anything about the video clip (I start to break out in cold sweat le).

Here comes my turn. I told them I have nothing to say but they insisted I say something, or anything. So I said, “Er, the chair is very uncomfortable”.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha…
*pengz*

Jie must have “flipped” after she heard my answer. I cannot help it la because I cannot form my sentences properly when there is a “formation” in the group. Just like during meetings when I had to talk. If everybody is so tense, I will also turned “gan jiong” lor. But if its those kind of meetings when the table is full of papers everywhere and everybody is sitting in a very relaxed mode, I can talk with confidence. It all comes with practice I suppose.

There was someone mentioning about people who are here to be seekers. I am not a seeker. I am just a follower. I follow my heart, I go where my heart wants me to go and do what my heart wants me to do.

I’m not out to seek to understand how Jesus Christ looks like or what he had said or done. I always believe that Jesus Christ exists. I also believe that Kwan Yin Ma, Guan Gong etc does exists as well. There are people who have seen Jesus Christ, but there are also people who had seen Kwan Yin Ma and other Gods. To me, they are like human beings with different surnames. The Chans, Tans, Tengs, Foos are all human beings. Jesus Christ, Kwan Yin Ma, Guan Gong are all God.

I won’t purposely go and seek what is the difference in Christianity or perhaps Taoism.

To me, if I’m the child of God, I don’t have to go and seek for Him. He’ll get his other children to look for me and bring me back to Him. For long before I was conceived by my parents, I was conceived in the mind of God.

Peace will bring me to the place I need to go or to the God to follow.

Frustration Day

Day 1
Verse to memorise : "Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him"

A penny for your thots?

=========================================================

Actually started the day with a very relaxed mood and told myself today's gonna be a good day.

Haiz..

Sometimes I wonder and wonder and wonder if I've made a right choice so far.

People around me in my current company:
1) Looks friendly but ain't so friendly
2) Looks harmless but full of daggers in pocket ready to stab you
3) Looks hardworking but is a "medium in the snake temple"
4) Looks cooperative but is a "Taiji master" in actual fact
5) Looks like a good coach but in fact teaches you nothing

Know what it feels like after a month in the company?
Feels like I've being kicked into the open sea but was not given any swimming float to help stay above the water nor being taught any swimming or survival skills.

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THEM!!!

There's no system of how things should be done.
There's not enough support to make the operation go on smoothly.
There're too many mouths given their 2cents worth of opinion (too many cooks spoils the soup).

HELP~

Since morning I had stomach cramps.
I've being surrounded by negative people.
My overloaded boss who grumbles and grumbles.
Can't really blame her cos she's really under alot of stress from her own boss.
She's simply overloaded with work therefore her grumbles become louder and seems to take up more time to finish her each grumble.
But gotta take my hat off her too.
Thou she grumbles alot, she still completes "some" tasks at the end of the day.
Then there is this contractor who did not get any of the 2 tenders called for recently.
He has been grumbling in my ears for days already.
When can he stop it?

Haiz..

I kena nagged and "bombed" the whole day till I became so negative now..

I REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING OUT LOUD NOW!!!

Cannot stand it already.
Better watch my "Bleach" now.

Daily Thots

11 Aug 07
Went M'sia (Holiday Plaza) for my hair rebonding..

Watch out... Pretty gal coming... Weet!! Weet!!
12 Aug 07
Went Charis Church with ZQ, Jie & Francis for our 2nd session of the "40days Purpose Driven Life"..
As usual.. I was late again.. (hahahaha)
It was the pastor talking that morning..
Terrible me.. Kept on yawning nonstop..

*slapz*

Next stop.. Lunch at Northpoint with Jie & Francis.
Exciting part coming along..

*drums roll*
drrrrr... drrrr... drrrr.....

Jie & Francis bought me a new hp..
Nokia 6300..

Yeapie!!!!!!!!

I'm walking on sunshine..
Woo Hoo~
I'm walking on sunshine..
Woo Woo Hoo~

10 good reasons why Jie & Francis bought me a new hp:
1) My Nokia N73 after upgrading the software & chng of new sim card still fails me.. I still cant receive or send out all my smses..
2) I've insufficient moni to chng new hp..
3) I've been a very good gal..
4) God is Good..
5) God is Great..
6) Jie is Good..
7) Jie is Great..
8) Francis is Good..
9) Francis is Great..
10) Jie & Francis Loves Me..

Woo Hoo~

Jie also bought me a new facial cleanser cos I complaint of having breakouts..
Tried the cleanser le..
Not bad sial.. (Thou I dunno what brand it is)

So happy when the auntie asked if we were sisters..
She said me & Jie look quite alike..

Yeah~

So long never hear that comment le..
Heex..
I'm a gal who needs constant assurance..

13 Aug 07
In the middle of the nite had very bad blocked runny nose..
One-third of my dustbin was filled with my mucus-filled tissues..

Went to see the doc in the late morning..
Doctor said I've nose allergy..
I've to be on nasal spray & medication for at least 3mths..

haiz..

Took a nap in the afternoon..
Woke up with a terrible thumping headache..
What's wrong man..

Tmr's going to be a tough day..
CEO reached SG fm HKG..
Note sent to all via email/sms/phone call (formal office attire)..

haiz...
I'm a informal gal by default..

Daily Thots

Tired.. Shag.. Sleepy.. Headache.. Gastric Pain.. Nausea..

Spent almost the whole day at Parkway Parade store..
Thou went to Bugis for a meeting with the landlord..
But after the meeting finished had to return to Parkway Parade store again..
So many outstanding issues there..
All because majority were last minute requests..

Haizz..

Can you people just make up your mind on what you want and what you need??

Shitz man..

After work went for Pilates class @ Amore (Kovan)..
Majority of the time I was laughing away cos I couldn't bend nor stretch like the rest of the gals in the class..
But not that I didn't want to try out the stretches wor..
Its because my hip bone hurts when I did the "ultimate" stretches..
Then halfway thru the class my face felt "hot", my head started to feel heavy and my breathing became heavier..

Haiz..

Guess I'm more of a CardioBlitz gal then a Pilates gal..
But nevertheless..
I've booked for Pilates class next Mon again..
Must try out again and see how..
Cannot lose out to the Aunties..
Grrr....

kekekeke... =P

Aiyoyo.. So late le ah??

Dun care..
At least must watch a few episodes of "Bleach"..

The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren

Wow.. Subject title v chim rite??

Nvr heared abt this book b4??
Hey u~ Sua Ku Ah??

hahahaha.. oopss.. =P

Years ago, I used to hab a small booklet on this topic..
Given to me by my sister, which is of cos, Joyce.
But its being left at my prev hse..

Being invited to join Jean at Charis Methodist Church for 40 Days of Purpose..
Went with Jie, Francis & ZQ..
Attended the 1st session this morn @ 11plus..
Was v tired & a little bit late for the session..
But I didn't doze off ok??

(not that i wanted to be late wor.. but i worked until past 12am the nite b4.. so i was really v tired ok.. heex.. nuttin but excuses.. but its the truth lor.. hahahaha..)

Don't ask me what I've learnt from the session today..
Sshhh..
Its my secret..
Don't tell you..
Want to know more abt it??
Go attend the session yourself to find out lor..

Its up to me to know..
For you to find out..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. =P

Jie gave me a "The Faith-Sharing New Testament With The Psalms"..
ZQ says the bible is better than my "Harry Potter" series..
But how to compare leh when ZQ nvr read a single book on "Harry Potter"..

Nonsense him.. hahahaha.. =P

But now I'm stuck in between..
Dunno which one to choose..
I've so many comics waiting to be read..
Lots of new storybooks waiting to be read..
"The Faith-Sharing New Testament With The Psalms" waiting to be read..
"The Purpose Driven Life" waiting to be read..

Oh No~

Which one should i choose 1st leh??
Think I beta continue watching my animation "Bleach"..

Its a v enjoyable animation..
Thumbs up!!

I CAN DO IT!! JUST WAIT & SEE!!

My boss = negative, grouchy
Me = interest level high, morale level low

Haiz..

My "buddy" is going on “sudden aka last minute” marriage leave next week..
We’ve got a couple of projects calling for tender next week..
All he has left for me is loads of unfinished work to clear next week..
Yet he has not given me any form of guidance to let me live thru next week..

Next week..
Survivor series..
Stay tuned to Channel “G”..

“G” for Gracie..

My boss is getting more & more grouchy..
My boss is getting more & more negative..

How I fear she’ll give up & just tender her resignation..
I’m already trying very hard to learn everything the hard way..
I’m learning the ropes by getting “arrowed” by countless mgrs..
“Lost of blood due to multiple wounds” left me so weak in the body & mind..

I don’t care how you people see me..
I’ll prove to all of you that this job is not only meant for a guy..
This is now MY JOB & I CAN DO IT BETTER THAN ALL OF YOU!!

So much for shouting out loud my grievances..
So tiring..
Farting also won’t make me so tired..
Might as well give a good & loud fart now..

PROOT!!! PROOT!!! PROOT!!!

Oh no..
Something seems to have leaked out from my asshole..
Hmmm..

(^_^) *blush*

Daily Thots

wrkin life has been very very stressful for me..
alot of problems have arisen recently..
i really start to query myself abt my capabilities..
is it me or is it the ppl involved in the project that causes the problems??

haiz..

sometimes i just wished i am as capable as my sister..
she's so capable and has such a good career..
its all because she had studied hard when she was young..

but there's nuttin i can do or chng abt my past..
all i can do is make the best out of everything i have now..

haiz..

so much easier said than done..
just like farting..

Msg In A Pic

after a tiring day at work..
decided to check out my Friendster late at nite..

had a new message..
being invited to view someone's pics..

a family photo without my kids..
wonder when was it taken..

noticed a photo that caught my eye..
someone that looks like "her" hugging him in the pic..

any meaning in it??
any message trying to be conveyed here??

*lost for words*