Irritated!!

why the fart smell cannot go away??!! yucks!! i tink d designer behind me farted.. nw the air is filled wif tt smell & i cant get outta ofc!! shitz!! dammit!!

IRRITATED!!

Declare Fresh Air!!

Wrongs

i noe i've done wrong.. wadever i've chosen.. is a wrong.. but i cant turn bck nw.. i really cant.. i dun hab a choice.. dun force me..

Life

ppl always tell me.. God is fair.. how fair?? hw do we gauge??

my life?? i cant be bothered abt it @ d moment.. since iz alrdy so messy..

frenz who take ppl lik me for granted.. many in tis world.. countless.. but y does it hab to happen so many times a yr?? a test to my endurance level?? a test against my patience??

a gf of mine.. had an unhappy incident.. dun wana share here thou.. but i dun tink iz fair for her lor.. i wonder wad greater plans Daddy has for her?? thou she's nt Daddy's child.. yet..

some other ppl.. embraced wif Daddy's luv.. misuses it.. misinterprets it.. spoils it..

Get A Life

dammit!! dun u f**kin hell irritate me!! i'm alrdy v tolerant towards u!! dun u push ur f**kin luck!! aHHHHHhhhhhHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

y do i hab to tolerate all ur nonsense?? f**k off man.. u always made my blood boil when i tok to u!! thou i dun tell it in ur face.. get tis f**kin rite.. u f**k off my life beta!!

aaahhhhhhHHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bcos of u.. i had to re-edit my blog & chng d contents.. i'm so f**kin pissed off wif u nw.. ahhhhHHHHHhhhh!!!!!

*names hab been left out for protection purpose*

extracted fm www.rbc.org:
He who has knowledge spares his words. Someone who displays wisdom will think before speaking, and then will share only insights likely to be helpful. A man of understanding is of a calm spirit. A mature person exhibits understanding by keeping cool in conflict. The next time you become angry, stop and prayerfully reflect for a moment. Ask God for a calm spirit and the right words to say. Remember, cooler heads prevail.

Dear Daddy.. pls take away d anger in me.. take away all d bad thots runnin in my mind.. pls cast d devil outta me nw.. pls gimme a calm spirit.. pls forgive me Daddy.. in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Happy??

i'm really unhappy..
unhappy wif my life..
unhappy wif my work..
unhappy wif almost everything now..

i wana be happy..
declare happiness!!
declare favour!!
declare abundance joy!!

reGreTs

i always tell myself.. never live my life wif regrets..
nw i'm startin to regret in almost everything i do..

am i happy?? at times..
am i sad?? quite frequently..

someone once told me.. i used to smile fm my heart..
nw my smile is only on d surface..
quite true.. i totally agree on tis comment..

i dun u'stan where has all d happiness gone to??
m i nt supposed to hab it??
m i nt worth of havin it??

i'm tired once again..
mentally.. physically.. spiritually..

Someday.. Sometime..

what hab i done??
what needs to be done??

emotions overrule my mind & heart..
i cant do wad needs to be done..

its a ripple effect..
decisions i make nw causes other effects on others..
all d consequences i've to face nw..

its ok..
someday.. sometime..
all will be done..

forgive me..

Misinterpreted / Misunderstood/ Taken For Granted

issit beta to b misinterpreted/misunderstood by others by wad you've just said?? or issit beta to b taken for granted for the things that you've done??

it seems lik i'm always at d wrong place.. at d wrong time.. is tis a joke??

its nvr a coincidence why we're at sm places.. its always for a purpose.. like why sm of us are here & why sm had to go elsewhere..

tryin to multi-task here.. but in d end.. kena multiplied (burden)..

am tryin to keep d faith strong.. keep it thr.. its hard thou.. but i must learn to believe..

Daily Thots

smtin's just nt rite wif tis r/s.. i just cant make out wads wrong..

assumptions:

- he's nt so much of a "I Love Daddy" person??

- we dun share a common interest/topic??

- he really loves me a lot.. but for d rite reasons??

but we do nt judge others by:

- their academic qualifications..

- their income status..

- their daily habits in life..

- their characters..

bcos our Daddy do not judge us too.. no matter wad.. eventually when we all become COG.. we're all blessed & connected in Jesus' name..

wad can i say?? wad can i do??

Dear Daddy.. pls lead d way.. pls hold my hand tightly.. pls guide me thru tis difficult period.. let me make no more mistakes.. no more.. & pray that Daddy you'll rmber my sins no more.. in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Daily Thots

suddenly felt like bloggin aft being away for such a long time..

shifted to a new place in JW abt 3wks ago.. rented a rm which costs me $480/mth (c/w mattress/aircon/cupboard).. stayin wif a young couple (wife same age as me, hubby older than me 2-3yrs) & they hab 2 kids.. Donovan is 6yrs old & Krystel is 3yrs old.. d kids are cute & r quite well-mannered.. they'll greet me "JieJie" when they see me.. esp Krystel.. nice havin them ard.. heex..

at times they're quite noisy in d living rm & their parents always worry tt i might b disturbed by their noises.. in fact.. i enjoyed their noises.. feels hme.. i simply missed my gals.. at times i hear them play outside wif their parents.. i'll start to tink.. y cant i hab such a life?? i used to hab it.. where has it gone to?? tinkin & tinkin makes me cry.. haiz.. crybaby attack..

anyway.. still nt v used to stayin outside on my own.. at times i wake up in d middle of d nite (nitemares again) & when i realised there isn't a close kin wif me in d hse.. i start cryin again.. i felt so lonely.. so alone in tis world..

d trip hme fm wrk is nt as bad as my 1st nite bck.. suddenly in d train all unfamilar faces.. none i've seen b4.. i sms-ed Jie.. & i cried in d train.. stupid ppl keep starin at me machiam i'm some alien.. hahaha..

haiz.. here i am.. eating cup noodles & studyin for my exams.. kinda missed some gd old oiliness in my life.. hahaha..

thou i'm nt v happy at times.. still pondering if i've made a wrong move in life.. but.. life still goes on..

Dear Daddy.. pray that You'll continue to watch over me.. Bless me in every areas of my life & take care of ALL things in my life.. Gimme d strength to be able to work & study at the same time.. Bless all my love ones.. All these I pray in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Daily Thots

why are there some people who can try 1 time and die so easily, while some people can try all means but still never succeed and die??

life is so tough.. so many decisions to make.. so many consequences to face.. so many unhappiness.. so many sorrows.. so many past to remember..

are you happy with your life?? am i happy with my life?? beats me too.. who can answer my question??

so tired.. very tired.. damn tired.. emotionally tired.. physically tired..

Daily Thots

sometimes i just wonder what did i do wrong?? must i do everything you like or felt is correct?? or am i supposed to live a life that is considered my own or yours??

i appreciate all your kind thoughts.. all your concern.. but.. don't do that to me when i do something that is against how you felt it should be..

a penny for my thoughts??

God bless~

Daily Thots

life is getting tough.. alot of changes here and there.. alot of new happenings in my life.. alot of decisions i've to make.. alot of consequences i've to face.. alot of burdens on my shoulder..

whatever it may be.. i'll never want to be a burden to anybody nor be an obstacle in anybody's life or relationship..

God bless all around me..

Movie Nite - Death Race

Rating: NC16
Consumer Advice: Some violence and coarse language
Genre: Action-Thriller
Language: English
Director: Paul W.S. Anderson
Cast: Jason Statham, Joan Allen, Tyrese Gibson, Ian McShane

Jason Statham leads the cast of an action-thriller set in the post-industrial wasteland of tomorrow, with the world’s most brutal sporting event as its backdrop. A penitentiary full of felons has inspired the jailers to create a grisly pastime ripe for lucrative kickbacks. Now, adrenalized inmates, a global audience hungry for televised violence and a spectacular arena come together to form the Death Race.

Three-time speedway champion Jensen Ames (Statham) is an expert at survival in the harsh landscape that has become our country. Just as he thinks he has turned his life around, the ex-con is framed for a gruesome murder he didn’t commit. Forced to don the mask of the mythical driver Frankenstein—a crowd favorite who seems impossible to kill—Ames is given an easy choice by Terminal Island’s warden (Joan Allen): suit up or rot away in a cell.

His face hidden by a metallic mask, one convict will be put through an insane three-day challenge. Ames must survive a gauntlet of the most vicious criminals in the country’s toughest prison to claim the prize of freedom. Driving a monster car outfitted with machine guns, flamethrowers and grenade launchers, one desperate man will destroy anything in his path to win the most twisted spectator sport on Earth.

This action-thrill movie is insane man.. but i simply loved the speed.. too fast too violent.. see the way they drive thru all the traps and gunshots fired by the opponents.. dammit.. when can i drive at such a speed man??!!

overall.. thumbs up man!!

愛

人生就是為了找尋愛的過程，
每個人的人生都要找到四個人
第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.

首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，學會了愛，才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，能夠相處一輩子的人。
但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。

你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？


沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你 。

當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？

愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。
換句話說，你愛一個人，也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，

如果你真愛一個人，就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。

真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、心情好壞，你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，也就是沒有絲毫要求。

畢竟，感情必須付出，而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。

兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛!

明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒；
就算會，也活不到那時候。
許下諾言的時候千萬注意，不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，隨便說說也不要緊，

請記住：”不可能實現的諾言最動人”
在愛情裡，說的是一套，做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，聽的人也不相信。

你呢？找到了第幾個？
茫茫人海中，你遇見了誰？誰又遇見了你？

Daily Thots

wad am i doin wif my life? is it d way i wan things to be?
i'm tired. v tired. super tired. extremely tired.
dun pity me. dun look at me differently. i'm just an ordinary person.

but i'm also special in a way. i'm a Child Of God.
i'm clinging to the cross. Daddy will take care of ALL things.
Amen~

Daily Thots

here i am.. sitting in the office.. waiting for the internal meeting to start.. its a Saturday leh.. why ask us to come back at 930am?? i didn't sleep enough you know?? these few days work is already so much yet Saturday also don't let me sleep longer??!!

haiz.. what can i say?? all i can do is sit infront of the computer and browse thru the internet.. click on facebook.. blog abit here and there.. check email (personal only)..

so tired.. so sleepy.. so hungry..

later going Excelsior Hotel.. Allan & Clara's baby daughter, Chloe's baby shower.. buy what for her leh?? don't know wor.. later fetch the kids go shop awhile.. if can't find anything.. then will give them red packet le..

anyway.. hope my GPS works.. if not.. think i'll be doing my rounds in town again.. petrol rounds.. hahaha..

ahhh!! can the meeting quickly start?? OMG!!

Movies with Colleagues "The Dark Knight "

Rating: PG
Language: English
Director: Christopher Nolan
Cast: Christian Bale, Heath Ledger, Aaron Eckhart, Maggie Gyllenhaal, Gary Oldman, Michael Caine, Morgan Freeman
Runtime: 153 mins

The follow-up to the action hit “Batman Begins," "The Dark Knight”reunites director Christopher Nolan and star Christian Bale, who reprises the role of Batman/Bruce Wayne in his continuing war on crime.

With the help of Lieutenant Jim Gordon and District Attorney Harvey Dent, Batman sets out to destroy organized crime in Gotham for good. The triumvirate proves to be effective, but they soon find themselves prey to a rising criminal mastermind known as the Joker, who thrusts Gotham into anarchy and forces the Dark Knight ever closer to crossing the fine line between hero and vigilante.

Academy Award nominee Heath Ledger (“Brokeback Mountain”) stars as arch-villain The Joker, and Aaron Eckhart plays District Attorney Harvey Dent. Maggie Gyllenhaal joins the cast in the role of Rachel Dawes. Returning from “Batman Begins” are Gary Oldman as Lieutenant Jim Gordon; Oscar winner Michael Caine (“The Cider House Rules”) as Alfred; and Oscar winner Morgan Freeman (“Million Dollar Baby”) as Lucius Fox.

Watched this movie with Joanna, May, Nicholas & his wife, Jintao & his wife, Kaili & Junhui. Worth the money and time to watch but the cinema we went to was the one at Marina Square. The few of us, those with longer legs, ended up having slight cramps to kneecaps and backache. Hmmm.. Next time want to watch such a movie with a long runtime, must make sure we choose a cinema with good seating.

Overall rating : Great!!

Daily Thots

What is wrong with me? Why can't I control my emotions well? How irresponsible can I be? How can I put other people's life at stake?

Dammit!! I'm so utterly disappointed with myself!! So damn angry with myself!!

But then again, I really thank God for taking care of everything. Really thank Him for not letting anything major happened nor let anyone get injured due to my carelessness. Praise the Lord!

tired

i'm tired.. so tired.. very tired.. extremely tired.. unexplainable tiredness..