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today i received a very long email fm a very great pal of mine...i'm so glad tt i've known wonderful frenz all tis yrs...frenz walk in & outta ur life...some leave footprints in ur life...while some disappears wifout a sign...i've lost sm very gd pals & i've oso gained sm very wonderful pals...in life...u win sm...u lose sm...

tis great pal of mine told me tis...

Tink everything on d bright side...Wen everything seems dw...No 1 thr to support u...Wadever u do seems nt rite...Everything in life seems so dark...But do noe tis...Wen everything is in d darkest darkness...U look up above u...Ur stars wil shine brightly upon u...It onli shines so bright wen u're in d dark...Those "stars" r ur frenz in life...They walk thru tis wif u...Let u noe we'll be thr even wen darkness sets in ur life...Try live ur life lik a sunshine...Thou it may be hard...But we've to wrk towards it...

Live ur life like a sunshine...Fly lik a kite in life & wrk towards d sunshine...A kite wifout designs is stil a kite...Y nt add sm life in it to make it fly...Wind r lik our opportunities...We've several opportunities in life...But do we grab it???More often we dun...We juz let it bypass us...If we grab hold of it...We wil fly high in life...& d string attached to our kite...Iz d bondin of our families...Ur loved ones...Ur frenz...Who wil always b thr to hold on to u...Let u fly high & if u do fail...U stil can fall bck to them & try again...

U're onli a failure if u give up tryin...

wad my dear fren had said to me is very true...i noe tis...be it if we can accept failures or setbacks or nt...tis is part of life...wadever comes...we've to take it...take it wif d rite attitude...onli wif d rite attitude...den we can be contented wif our life...thr is no perfect person in tis world...nor is thr any perfect life in tis world...

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sometimes in life...u always tot u've lead it in d rite way...rite manner...but in fact...u've been gg d wrong way...doin it in d wrong manner...

life is full of choices...full of decisions to be made...if u use d wrong approach...d consequences to it might be disastrous...

i always believe in doin things by followin ur heart...haa...it may nt be d rite choice after all...

so much for tryin to be a perfectionist...its tough...too difficult...

bein alive is a joyous thing...creatin lives is a tremendous miracle done...but keepin one's soul alive isn't a simple task...it takes alot of courage & strength to maintain the longevity of ur soul...

i always wanted d best for d ppl ard me...esp d ppl i loved & care for alot alot...d ppl whom i kept close to my heart...but...it seems tt its always nt within my reach...nt within my ability nor power...

wad r d qualities needed to be a delightful companion???wad kinda morals or values does d person need to hab???

Quote (7 Habits):
"The key to listening is with the eyes and the heart"

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Sat [25/6/05]

hmmm...wad did i do on tis day???went out to celebrate ZQ bday together wif Ruby, Wenbin, Ah Guan & Penny...we went to Sake Sushi @ Heeren...Jean was supposed to meet up wif us but last min couldn't make it cos she was @ Sentosa wif James...hmmm...spendin quality time wif James...cannot be blamed...i din eat much @ Sake Sushi cos i wasn't feelin quite well...halfway thru d dinner...me & Ruby sneaked off to downstairs Four Leaves bakery to get a bday cake for ZQ...yum yum...its simply delicious...my fav strawberry cake...so many strawberries & so creamy...actually wanted to light up the cake @ d entrance of Sake Sushi & walk in...but den again...me & Ruby no guts to do so...wakakaka...but d thing is...we couldn't finish d cake & had to end up play finger-guessing (scissors, paper, stone) game to see who lose & d punishment would be to eat a slice of d cake...hmmm...i tink me & ZQ ate d most of d cake...hahaha...but nvm...i enjoyed d punishment...

after tt...we went to a nearby pub to hab some beer & tcss there...Wenbin & Ah Guan showed me some tricks usin d poker cards...m i stupid or r they too fast for my eyes???i reali cant make out hw they could hab guess wadever card i chose leh...hmmm...spooky...

catched a midnite show "Initial D" wif Ah Guan, Penny, Ruby & ZQ...Wenbin din join us...spoilsport...waaaa...tt was such a great show...nice cars wif lotsa handsome guys esp Edison...wooh...i reali almost drool everytime he displays his trademark smile...he reali melted my heart man...d cars were terrific man...evo 7...hw i wish i could own a car lik tt...dream on lady...dream on...

oh ya...found tis phrase in d show beri meaningful...but i rephrase it liao...

"U can never find happiness if you live in other people's world...Life is onli meaningful when u've found your own world..."

Sun [26/6/05]

waited for hubby to wake up @ 4plus...went to CWP to watch "Batman Begins" @ 610pm...hmmm...nice show...but abit too fast durin the fights...m i too slow or???hmmm...nvm...went to buy groceries aft d show...baby stuff esp...

Mon [27/6/05]

Aileen is sick today...so is her boss...but Mrs Tan came today...was ok before her 1st meeting but face changed "blacked" after her meetin...scary sial...me felt so cold in the ofc today...tink my body still beri weak...i left d ofc @ abt 630pm...Mrs Tan stil havin her meetin...dun care le...i dun wana stay in d ofc so late...i've gt appt...

reached hme @ abt 8pm...had my dinner & played wif Adrienne for awhile & i'm off to CWP to meet ZQ for a movie...hmmm...we watched d 930pm show "Ghost Train"...ok la...nt as scary as i tot it was...but it was stil scary lor...hahaha...i tink ZQ oso scared leh...scary cat...hahaha...

hmmm...watched movies continuously for 3 days liao...nt bad sial...hahaha...i hope Weds can watch "War of the Worlds" wif Jean they all...but heard tt its Wenbin's bday...hmmm...

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ytd went bck to wrk aft 2 days mc stayin @ hme...dw wif sinus flu, cough & fever...stupid med eat until nw stil havin runny block nose & cough...tt's d reason y i dun wana c a doc everytime i'm sick...it's useless lor...eat so many med oso d same...bck to square 1...

heard tt Jean (my best fren) gt a new job...Congrats to her...finally she's outta her current company...she's doin fine there but 1 tends to get bored wif d routine wrk aft some yrs lor...same goes for me...i'm bored wif my wrk too...i need a chng...i need more interesting challenges & varied work...oh god...y cant u see i'm reali tryin hard to break out fm tis current borin plc???i've oledi sent out numerous resumes but y none hab replied??? *sigh*

ytd was Andrea's bdae...she's 6yrs old nw...hw time flies...i din realise i've aged so fast...next yr she's gg Pri 1 oledi...hmmm...guess i'll be more tired coachin her den...i've yet start to coach her but i'm oledi feelin tired physically & mentally...sounds lik a failure ah???wad a bad mother i m...

went to visit a fren in hospital ytd nite...she's feelin beta nw...although i dunno her well...but i felt kinda sad wen i saw her ytd...dunno y...crazy la me...i reali hope she recovers fast & hope she's stronger (mentally & physically) as days goes by...juz hope she knows tt no matter wad happens...she stil hab her frenz to fall bck on...

juz a note to all my frenz out there...tis is wad i felt la...

frenz r for a lifetime...frenz r always there for u...they may nt be there for u 24/7...but dun tink tt u're alone in tis world wen u get setbacks in life...frenz r always there to hold u up & acc u to walk thru it...frenz shares all ur happiness & sadness...

juz came hme wif Andrea & Adrienne...brought Andrea for a "Kids Squad event" @ MyGym @ Civic Centre...tiring sial...cos i carried babe for more den an hr thruout the whole session wen her jiejie is havin fun...

dunno wana go out tonite or nt...or maybe tmr afternoon go rollerbladin...haiz...depends la...it reali depends on my mood...abit "sot sot" now...wakakaka...

Kuantan Trip

Day 1 (17/6/05)
assemble @ Newton car park @ 1015pm...hahaha...fm far u luk @ us...we luk lik a bunch of refugees waitin to be deported bck to our country...wakakaka...too many ppl wif big bags waitin for the coach...

left Newton car park @ abt 1045pm & headed str8 to Link 2...basket...there was a jam therel...hmmm...reached the immigration clearance @ abt 1215am...dammit...d coach so freezin...brr...brr...i was lik a curled up worm thruout the whole coach ride to Kuantan...

had a stop-over @ dunno wer @ abt 230am...i had fishball noodles hoping tt i can sleep beta if i'm full...but haiz...i onli slept @ abt 330am to 430am...too cold to sleep liao...somemore i havin block nose...

Day 2 (18/6/05)
d driver drove beri fast but we stil reached Garden Hotel (Kuantan) @ abt 630am...& d worst thing is tt we cant check in cos all d rooms r not ready yet...shit em...so we had to go wash up & hab breakfast in d hotel & we're off to our sightseeing programmes...

went to d turtle sanctuary...all those kinda turtle u can even see it in SG lor...juz go Kusu island i suppose u can see more...hahaha...so boring...

went to a small village to see a monkey pluck coconuts...hmmm...d monkey must be wondering..."y all these stupid ppl lik to stand under d hot sun to see me pluck coconuts while i'm hidden in d shade & takin my own sweet time to pluck d coconuts???"scratch my head too...i cant understand tourists...& i was 1 of d stupid ones standing under the hot sun tt day...wakakaka...

went to Kampung Chempadak to see handicraft...another boring plc...nuttin to see...

went to Batik Village...boring plc as well...haiz...

hmmm...went to Panching Waterfalls...wooh...d scenery there is nice & coolin...i tink tis is d 1st time i came across a waterfall...me damn sua koo man...

went up to Panching Caves...i managed to climb up to d highest cave wif a few gals & guys (d rest nt adventurous enuff or lik wad we say...bo stamina)...

d air up there smells beta & it instantly cleared my block nose...wooh...d plc machiam lik where all d condor heros hab their fights...hahaha...i feel like a hero man...

den we (1 gal 2 guys) went into another cave (d rest al tired liao) to see the "Sleeping Buddha"...it's beri beri deep inside the cave...urine smell so pungent...i wonder issit d bat's urine smell or other ppl pee inside d cave...d cave abit eerie & beri dark inside...there was a guy who lead us into d cave...hmmm...he explained to us d things we came across inside...but he spoke his own language...all we could do is to nod our heads & say "oh"...hahaha...den he took some water fm a well inside & said d water can wash away all our bad luck...my gf used her hands to scoop d water & wet her hair...d guy say "no no"...den said muz pour over d head...d other 2 guys din wan to pout over their heads as well...for me...i allowed him to pour d water over my head...woo...so cold so cold...

we arrive bck @ d hotel @ abt 630pm...free & easy time...we quickly bathe & rushed to d Mega Mart @ abt 8pm...shopped til 930pm...i managed to control myself & bought onli a pair of shoes (59 ringgit)...den we had our dinner...KFC!!!haiz...go overseas stil eat d same kinda food we can get in SG...we ate til d shoppin centre closed...hahaha...all d lights were out except for KFC...

b4 we could make our way bck to d hotel...it was rainin so heavily...no choice lor...had to run across d street...was drenched all over...had fever @ nite...

Day 3
woke up @ 8am...had breakfast @ d hotel & we checked out @ 10am...

headed to Telok Chempadak...waa...nice white sandy beach & clean sea water...although d sun was very "big"...but its stil very windy lor...hmmm...so much nicer den our east coast beach...we stayed there about 20mins & we're off to d Salted Fish factory...

nuttin much @ d Salted Fish factory la...just like a normal fish stall inside the shop lor...but den they're sellin salted fish la...its a minimart kinda plc leh...i wonder y they called it a factory???hmmm...bought a pc of salted fish there...freshly chopped...den i bought alot of titbits there...spent in total $63 ringgit...

stopped over @ Yong Peng...had d famous Yong Peng "Yong Tau Foo"...wooo...nice soft mee they hab...onli $4 ringgit per bowl...

reached M'sia custom (Link 1) @ abt 8pm...terrible jam...wen i reach hme was abt 930pm...tired sial...had fever @ nite again...

came hme saw Andrea stil nt well yet...stil coughin away & havin block nose as well...@ nite she coughed until vomited thrice...haiz...poor gal...

as for Adrienne..she caught d flu fm her jiejie lor...both had fever wen i was away in Kuantan...poor gal...she lost wt...she dun hab d "la bi xiao xing" face liao...

me so sad tt nite...so much wanted to kiss & hug d both of them tellin them hw much i missed & love them...but i cant cos i'm sick as well...

hmmm...in total...i onli spent S$100 for tis Kuantan trip...reali thrifty ah...

ytd went bck to wrk...covered d secretary's duty...i felt so terrible...coughin lik mad sial & havin a runny block nose...but none of d bosses asked me to go hme leh...@ abt 3plus den they asked if i need to go c d doc or not...i replied..."huh???so late liao ah...nvm la...no need"...

me had slight fever last nite too..so today i'm on mc...2days mc to nurse my sinus flu, cough & fever...

10 Things I Want To Do Before I Breathe My Last

1. Get a motorbike (class 2B) licence.

2. Own a KTM & ride on the road legally.

3. Own either a Pajero Mini/CRV/Evo 7/Merz SLK.

4. Have a feel of bungee jumping.

5. Travel around the world.

6. Set up my own business.

7. Watch my kids grow up happily and have a family of their own.

8. Saved enough to let my kids have a comfortable life.

9. Be a delightful companion to everyone around me.

10. Complete everything that has to be done & leave without any regrets in life.

Company Trip 2005 [3 Days 1 Nite Kuantan Leisure Tour]

juz gt my itinerary 2day...seems lik abit too packed leh d activities...

Day 1 [17/6/05] Singapore - Kuantan

2215 hrs Assemble @ pick up pt [Newton Hawker Centre]
2230 hrs Depart fm pick up pt to Kuantan
2330 hrs Customs & immigration clearance

Day 2 [18/6/05] Kuantan

0100 hrs Supper stop @ rest pt
0500 hrs Arrive @ Kuantan
0530 hrs Wash up & prepare for breakfast
0700 hrs Buffet breakfast @ hotel
0830 hrs Visit Kampung Chempedak in Beserah
1100 hrs Visit to Turtle Sanctuary
1230 hrs Lunch @ own expense
1400 hrs Visit to Panching Waterfalls
1600 hrs Visit to Panching Caves
1800 hrs Dinner @ own expense
2000 hrs Shopping @ Mega Mall
2200 hrs Return bck to hotel

Day 3 [19/6/05] Kuantan - Singapore

0700 hrs Breakfast @ hotel
0900 hrs Own leisure time
1100 hrs Visit to Salted Fish factory
1200 hrs Lunch @ own expense
1300 hrs Depart bck to Singapore
2000 hrs Arrive in Singapore

Details of accommodation in Kuantan

MS Garden Hotel
Kuantan
Lot 5 & 10 Lorong Gambut
Off Jalan Beserah, 25300
Kuantan Pahang

Tel : 09-5177 899

Daily Tots

in life...u can nvr get d best outta both worlds...or mayb some can...but definitely nt me...everytime i try my beri best to make everyone ard me happi...sometimes i succeed...sometimes i fail...

i'm such loser in handlin all kinds of relationships...haiz...sometimes d harder i try...worst results appear...at times i reali qns myself...y do i hab to try so hard???issit worth everything tt i've done???hmmm...but tt's no rite or wrong in a relationship...i had d choice...since i chose it...i jolly well live wif it...

2day a colleague of mine sent me an email sayin tt i was definitely worth d "Most Fun" award & it was reali fun havin me ard...i reali appreciate her email alot...it reali did bring on a smile in my heart...

all of a sudden...d word "integrity" appears in my mind...it means being true to ur own feelings...i'm nt sure if i hab integrity in me...geez...

nuttin hurts u more den someone whom u treasured alot misunderstood u...i can tel u...it hurts alot... *sigh*

come to tink of it...y would ppl misunderstand u unless iz something u did tt triggers them to tink tt way???issit reali time to reflect on d past actions or words said???

blame no 1 for their tots abt u...every1 should b responsible for their own actions or words said...

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ytd went to celebrate Ja bday together wif Jean...we went Marche for our dinner...we had rosti wif cheese sausage/mixed vege in oyster sauce/calamari/chicken drumstick in a kinda sweet sauce...yum yum...as usual...we had our neo-print taken...

aft tt we went to catch a movie (monster-in-law) @ cineleisure...hahaha...so enjoyable...of cos la...as usual...we went clubbin lor...haiz...we went devils bar again...i tink we like 4ever stuck wif tt place ah???hmmm...next outin muz chng club liao...

at devils as usual lor...ppl say i machiam lik "7th mth release ghost"...hahaha...no lah...whether its frequent clubbin or once a mth thing...i always make sure i enjoy it to the fullest lor...

met Ah Sim an old fren of mine...hmmm...he lost abit wt...nt bad lah...but his eyes still look like a line wen he smile...cant see his eyeballs...hahaha

went hme @ abt 445am...hubby came to fetch me...we went for supper wif Wenbin & Zhiqiang @ my fav Whampoa "Bak Ku Teh" stall...i ate pig's kidney...my fav man...yum yum...

after sending Wenbin & Zhiqiang hme...we reached hme @ abt 540am...came hme bathe & rest for awhile & we're off to d wet market again...bought vege/fish/prawns/chicken wings/fruits...

d aircon man (Kannan) came at abt 1045am...he said our aircon nid to chng some parts in the compressor...nuttin to do wif leakage prob as mentioned by our earlier contractor...he oso mentioned tt d aircon electronic board wasn't properly done up & the main aircon unit wasn't washed clean enuff...he's comin bck next wk to wash d aircon & chng the parts...oh my god...everything costs $250...dammit...i'm reali broke again...

til now i stil haben sleep...walking zombie ah???wakakaka...

overall...i tink i managed to be a delightful companion ytd...i guess my presence there was much appreciated...

7 Habits of Highly Effective People - Day 3

as usual la...2day class started fm 9am to 630pm...but heng ah...last day of d wrkshop liao wor...

2day we touch on:
- seek 1st to understand, den be understood (communication, listenin skills)
- synergise (valuin d differences, creatin d 3rd alternative)
- sharpen d saw (physical, mental, spiritual, social/emotional)

oh...i quite lik tis additional notes Carol gave us...

Five Languages of Luv:
1. Words of Affirmation
2. Quality Time
3. Receiving (& Giving) Gifts
4. Acts of Service
5. Physical Touch

well...overall d wrkshop was fun...although there may be some times wen i kept yawnin...wad to do???i lack of sleep mah...kekeke...if i reali read it thru again & apply d 7 Habits in my daily life...i guess i can reali be quite an effective person leh...wakakaka...hmmm...2day i gt tis "Most Fun" award in d wrkshop...d prize was a bk on "Managing to Have Fun @ d Wrkplace"...such a joy to get an award for foolin ard in d wrkshop...hahaha...

hmmm...inside tis $350 "bible" u can find alot of meaningful quotes...i'll type them out as days goes by...

Quote (as mentioned by Qiang too):
Sow a thought, reap an action.
Sow an action, reap a habit.
Sow a habit, reap a character.
Sow a character, reap a destiny.

7 Habits of Highly Effective People - Day 2

waa...2day's course started fm 9am - 630pm again...d interaction tests abit draggy i guess...we managed to touch on Habits 2-4...tmr we'll touch on Habits 5-7...venue tmr is @ Springleaf Tower, 19th flr...hope i dun get headaches tmr...pressure probs...

2day we touch on:
- begin wif d end in mind (choosin a life centre)
- put 1st things 1st (noe ur priorities in life, time mgmt matrix, schedulin d "big rocks")
- tink win win (d habit of interpersonal leadership, paradigm shift)

oh ya...2day's tea-break was raw carrots & cucumbers & some nachos chips...me ate alot of carrots...hope later poo poo tt time wun hab to use too much force ah...hahahahahaha...

hmmm...2day abit brain dead leh...dunno y...sianz...mayb bcos i was actually tinkin abt smtin else???haiz...dun tink too much oso...

my fren always reminds me...$350 leh...focus focus...

7 Habits of Highly Effective People - Day 1

1st day of d wrkshop held at AP, 2nd flr, multi-function rm...trainer is none other den our Senior Mgr fm HR (Ms Carol Yong)...the wrkshop lasted fm 9am - 630pm...

2day's wrkshop abit draggy leh...we're supposed to cover Habit 1 & Habit 2...but eventually we onli managed to touch on Habit 1...hmmm...i tink Carol told us too many life stories liao lor...hahaha...understood fm Carol tt the "bible" on d 7 Habits of Highly Effective People costs around $350/=...wow!!!tt's alot man...i'll make sure i cherish tis "bible" alot alot...kekeke...

2day we touch on:
- wad is a habit (intersection of knowledge, skill & desire)
- hw to be a highly effective person (balance of high character & high competence)
- difference between character & personality, principles & values
- maturity continuum, paradigm shift, social mirror, self-fulling prophecy, P/PC Balance, EBA

end of day 3 den i'll try to do a summary of d 7 Habits of Highly Effective People...hmmm...tokin abt tis...another gd fren of mine attended tis wrkshop b4 leh...mayb end of day 3 i'll ask him see wad he had learnt fm tis wrkshop...to see if we hab d same concept or nt...kekeke...

i tink tis wil be a beri enriching wrkshop...hope i can absorb everything taught...cos i tink it'll reali benefit me alot alot man...

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read an article today...it mentioned smtin like u've gotta noe & understand ur boss very well in order to pave ur career path...it can be quite true & it can oso be considered as craps...

if u reali noe ur boss damn well & u noe tt he's tt kinda of person u've gotta suck up to him in order to get into his gd bks...will u stil continue to do so???u will unless u're a boot-licker la...

me???i dun tink so...i can onli take each step @ a time...i'm nt a shoe-polisher nor a boot-licker...i'm a "left ear in rite ear out" cum "di siao di gong" employee...if i've to say smtin which may sound "rude" to my boss but actually i'm onli stating the facts...i'll either keep quiet or if not i'll juz say it out lor...i'm nt gg to lick anyone's boots juz to pave my career path...no no no no no...no way man...to me...success gained in tis manner is onli a heap of shit to me...

today aft wrk i went swimming wif a colleague...it started raining wen we went in d pool...we swam for abt 45mins den we got up...aft bathin...d rain got heavier...so we waited until abt 9plus den hubby came to fetch us hme...heng ah...

for the next 3 days i'll be attending a workshop called "7 Habits of Highly Effective People"...heard tt it's a beri enriching workshop...hope i wun fall asleep & pay 100% attention to the speaker...hahaha...i oso hope the speaker is handsome or else i sure brain dead b4 everything starts...wakakaka...

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everything in tis world started wif a zero...everything we hab nw was bcos of the choices we had made earlier...hw many chances were we given in fact b4 we came to a conclusion to everything???sometimes we onli hab 1 chance to make a decision to something...be it the rite choice or the wrong choice...u chose the path urself...u finish walkin it...

seeing all those suicide cases on tv...its reali devastating indeed...its makes u wonder...y din tis ppl seek help fm their frenz or relatives???y din they choose other solutions to the problems they faced???y do they hab to choose to die???

nuttin can be explained logically...iz all in the troubled person's mentality...if they can hab beta solutions to it...do u tink they wun wan it???it takes a person alot of courage to commit suicide...maybe iz reali bcos they hab no other solutions liao...tt's y they chose to die...help fm others always often comes too late...wen negative things happened...everybody starts to blame everybody for nt helping...

i onli noe & believe...wen someone needs a listenin ear...offer it to her/him whole-heartedly...they need u to listen...if nt they wun hab come to u...if they could hab chose others...they wun hab come to u in the 1st place...

u reap wad u sow...u plant a seed...u get the fruit...u put a rotten fish on the ground...all u can get are worms...

R U My Fren

again & again & again...tt freak muz be smtin wrong wif his mind...always throwin tanturms in the ofc...throwin it @ me...wad is wrong wif him???he tink he's a baby ah???throw tantrums...dun he noe tt i always feel beri "bek chek" aft tt???

tis afternoon i had a short conversation wif my "ex" best fren (Paul)...i felt a little bit sad wen i put dw the call...but i felt worst aft he sent me an sms...

our conversation (summarised):
Paul asked if i'm ok & if i'm feelin beta oledi...durin the conversation i told him tt even if he dun wana mit me iz ok...but he've to rmber tt he stil hab to visit his god-dotter (Adrienne)...he said of cos la...i told him if he wana come wif his gf (Jess) iz ok for me...den he said he's sure tt Jess wun come...he'll said he'll still come & visit Adrienne even if Jess will get agitated...

durin the conversation...he mentioned tt if i should see Jess outside...juz walk away & dun nid to purposely go over say "Hi" to her...& he apologised in advance 1st in case Jess should do anitink to me outside wen she sees me...i asked him wad kinda things wil she do to me...he say maybe she'll gimme a stuck-up face or wad lor...i say nvm la...since i always dun wear my contact lens...i wun be able to spot her nor see her show stuck-up face @ me...

Paul's sms to me:
he ask me not to sms him for the time being...

i feel sad...so sad so sad...my best fren asked me not to sms him...i kinda hate him abit...hate him...yes or no???i dunno too...do i hate him???he was so nice so nice so nice to me in the past...so caring towards me...y do everythin hab to chng nw???everythin had changed too drastically...too fast...i cant catch up...

i was tinkin...in tis world...who can be ur fren 4ever???nobody can...environment changes...ppl change...feelings change...my heart feels very "sour" nw...hw can such a gd relationship end up lik tis???who is responsible for al tis changes???

i'm nt gg to cry nw...no no no...i've cried enuff over the past few days...i'm sick wif al tis stuff...al tis kinda treatment i get...y do i always hab to be the one cryin???y should i get so serious abt al my frenz???do they al treat me as a spare tyre???wen they're lonely den they find me...wen they hab company...i'm kicked outta the pic...

frenz come in & outta ur life...some leave footprints & some leave wifout a trace...i wan frenz to stay wif me for life...will i be able to find sm???or @ least 1???i gib my al wen it comes to making frenz...do they treat me as if i'm a fool or do they treat me reali as a fren they loved to hab around them???

my eyes always play a fool around here...my mind & heart says tt i'm nt gg to cry...but stil...i'm cryin...i'm such a silly idiot...y should i cry wen no 1 cares @ al...i'm such a stupid fool...

Wad iS LuV

hmmm...too many ppl (including myself) havin probs recently...y do we all hab to fall into tt dark pit called "Luv"???

sometimes we get wad we always craved & yearned for (happiness)...& sometimes we get wad we always tried to avoid instead (sorrows)...

like i always say...each person hab onli 1 chance to live his/her life...dun live ur life wif regrets...seek wad u always wanted...even if u had made the wrong choice...dun luk bck & regret...learn fm it & move on forward...

i saw tis advert on tv recently...it prompted us to always say the "San Zi Jing" to our loved ones...always say "I Luv U"...but i've gt 1 thing to add on to tis...say "I Luv U" to ur loved ones everyday...& plsssss...say it fm the bottom of ur heart...dun say it for the sake of saying onli...touch ur heart & mean it...

To all my frenz & my family...I Luv U...fm the bottom of my heart...

*sigh*

i tel u...he's a freak he's a freak he's a freak...every morn for nuttin show temper in the ofc once he steps in...wad he wan???i tink our ofc fengshui no gd...cos aft we shifted into the new ofc...he's mood damn bad every morn leh...scold scold scold...he noe ppl's morn kena spoilt by him every morn o nt???y he lidat one???y muz he make a big fuss over everything???y muz he be so uncooperative???aiyayayayayayayaya...

my supervisor (Indra) la...always dun do his wrk properly...den me always kena nagged nonstop by tt freak bcos of him...shit la...tt freak said wana gib Indra warning letter...i told him dun la...gib Indra another chance la...dun he noe if he gib Indra ano warning letter...it'll be Indra's 3rd warning letter liao wor...3rd warning letter is bad bad bad...i tink 3rd warning letter will lead to him being sacked lor...

haiz...me correcting the maintenance schedule the 3rd x nw...i cant complete tis pc of wrk if he always dun gib me the correct information...if tis schdule dun come out in time...i cant fax to the relevant contractors for them to confirm the schedule for me fm Jun '05 to May '06...jialatz one leh...

Adrienne cried so long...juz nw dinner x brought her go dwstairs walk walk...den Andrea lor...played peek-a-boo wif her & frightened her...haiz...

tis few days health nt beri gd too...keep feeling giddy...haiz...i'm eating alot of vege & meat leh...but seems lik nuttin helps...oh...& i lost weight too...dunno y...tink bcos i'm nt eating well nor sleepin well...

hw long wil i live???til i c my kids grow up & get married & hab kids of their own???or wil i juz live til..............