Irritated!!

why the fart smell cannot go away??!! yucks!! i tink d designer behind me farted.. nw the air is filled wif tt smell & i cant get outta ofc!! shitz!! dammit!!

IRRITATED!!

Declare Fresh Air!!

Wrongs

i noe i've done wrong.. wadever i've chosen.. is a wrong.. but i cant turn bck nw.. i really cant.. i dun hab a choice.. dun force me..

Life

ppl always tell me.. God is fair.. how fair?? hw do we gauge??

my life?? i cant be bothered abt it @ d moment.. since iz alrdy so messy..

frenz who take ppl lik me for granted.. many in tis world.. countless.. but y does it hab to happen so many times a yr?? a test to my endurance level?? a test against my patience??

a gf of mine.. had an unhappy incident.. dun wana share here thou.. but i dun tink iz fair for her lor.. i wonder wad greater plans Daddy has for her?? thou she's nt Daddy's child.. yet..

some other ppl.. embraced wif Daddy's luv.. misuses it.. misinterprets it.. spoils it..

Get A Life

dammit!! dun u f**kin hell irritate me!! i'm alrdy v tolerant towards u!! dun u push ur f**kin luck!! aHHHHHhhhhhHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

y do i hab to tolerate all ur nonsense?? f**k off man.. u always made my blood boil when i tok to u!! thou i dun tell it in ur face.. get tis f**kin rite.. u f**k off my life beta!!

aaahhhhhhHHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bcos of u.. i had to re-edit my blog & chng d contents.. i'm so f**kin pissed off wif u nw.. ahhhhHHHHHhhhh!!!!!

*names hab been left out for protection purpose*

extracted fm www.rbc.org:
He who has knowledge spares his words. Someone who displays wisdom will think before speaking, and then will share only insights likely to be helpful. A man of understanding is of a calm spirit. A mature person exhibits understanding by keeping cool in conflict. The next time you become angry, stop and prayerfully reflect for a moment. Ask God for a calm spirit and the right words to say. Remember, cooler heads prevail.

Dear Daddy.. pls take away d anger in me.. take away all d bad thots runnin in my mind.. pls cast d devil outta me nw.. pls gimme a calm spirit.. pls forgive me Daddy.. in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Happy??

i'm really unhappy..
unhappy wif my life..
unhappy wif my work..
unhappy wif almost everything now..

i wana be happy..
declare happiness!!
declare favour!!
declare abundance joy!!

reGreTs

i always tell myself.. never live my life wif regrets..
nw i'm startin to regret in almost everything i do..

am i happy?? at times..
am i sad?? quite frequently..

someone once told me.. i used to smile fm my heart..
nw my smile is only on d surface..
quite true.. i totally agree on tis comment..

i dun u'stan where has all d happiness gone to??
m i nt supposed to hab it??
m i nt worth of havin it??

i'm tired once again..
mentally.. physically.. spiritually..

Someday.. Sometime..

what hab i done??
what needs to be done??

emotions overrule my mind & heart..
i cant do wad needs to be done..

its a ripple effect..
decisions i make nw causes other effects on others..
all d consequences i've to face nw..

its ok..
someday.. sometime..
all will be done..

forgive me..

Misinterpreted / Misunderstood/ Taken For Granted

issit beta to b misinterpreted/misunderstood by others by wad you've just said?? or issit beta to b taken for granted for the things that you've done??

it seems lik i'm always at d wrong place.. at d wrong time.. is tis a joke??

its nvr a coincidence why we're at sm places.. its always for a purpose.. like why sm of us are here & why sm had to go elsewhere..

tryin to multi-task here.. but in d end.. kena multiplied (burden)..

am tryin to keep d faith strong.. keep it thr.. its hard thou.. but i must learn to believe..

Daily Thots

smtin's just nt rite wif tis r/s.. i just cant make out wads wrong..

assumptions:

- he's nt so much of a "I Love Daddy" person??

- we dun share a common interest/topic??

- he really loves me a lot.. but for d rite reasons??

but we do nt judge others by:

- their academic qualifications..

- their income status..

- their daily habits in life..

- their characters..

bcos our Daddy do not judge us too.. no matter wad.. eventually when we all become COG.. we're all blessed & connected in Jesus' name..

wad can i say?? wad can i do??

Dear Daddy.. pls lead d way.. pls hold my hand tightly.. pls guide me thru tis difficult period.. let me make no more mistakes.. no more.. & pray that Daddy you'll rmber my sins no more.. in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Daily Thots

suddenly felt like bloggin aft being away for such a long time..

shifted to a new place in JW abt 3wks ago.. rented a rm which costs me $480/mth (c/w mattress/aircon/cupboard).. stayin wif a young couple (wife same age as me, hubby older than me 2-3yrs) & they hab 2 kids.. Donovan is 6yrs old & Krystel is 3yrs old.. d kids are cute & r quite well-mannered.. they'll greet me "JieJie" when they see me.. esp Krystel.. nice havin them ard.. heex..

at times they're quite noisy in d living rm & their parents always worry tt i might b disturbed by their noises.. in fact.. i enjoyed their noises.. feels hme.. i simply missed my gals.. at times i hear them play outside wif their parents.. i'll start to tink.. y cant i hab such a life?? i used to hab it.. where has it gone to?? tinkin & tinkin makes me cry.. haiz.. crybaby attack..

anyway.. still nt v used to stayin outside on my own.. at times i wake up in d middle of d nite (nitemares again) & when i realised there isn't a close kin wif me in d hse.. i start cryin again.. i felt so lonely.. so alone in tis world..

d trip hme fm wrk is nt as bad as my 1st nite bck.. suddenly in d train all unfamilar faces.. none i've seen b4.. i sms-ed Jie.. & i cried in d train.. stupid ppl keep starin at me machiam i'm some alien.. hahaha..

haiz.. here i am.. eating cup noodles & studyin for my exams.. kinda missed some gd old oiliness in my life.. hahaha..

thou i'm nt v happy at times.. still pondering if i've made a wrong move in life.. but.. life still goes on..

Dear Daddy.. pray that You'll continue to watch over me.. Bless me in every areas of my life & take care of ALL things in my life.. Gimme d strength to be able to work & study at the same time.. Bless all my love ones.. All these I pray in Jesus' name.. Amen~