Moody

2day my boss came bck fm his HKG study trip...he was away since last weds to sat...as usual lor...monday blues aka morn blues aka away fm ofc too long blues...me kena nag nag nag for nuttin...y cant he spare my ears & go nag @ the actual person???haiz...me "zhen ming ku"...

hmmm...called up a part-time job 2day...i'll either be swimmin/rollerblade/badminton instructor...the guy say wil mit me sm day for a short interview...i asked if there's ani trainin provided but he say there is none & iz ok since i noe the basics & i juz hab to teach the basics...wa biang eh...he dun even nid to assess me if i m up to standard o nt...jialatz leh...i can make it o nt???wori leh me...

aiyah..."hang cheng" (hokkein) reali tt bad meh???y i sent out so many resumes but none replied leh???issit tt my expected salary mark up too high liao leh???or issit bcos they find me old & unwanted cos i've gt 2 kids liao???basket...

juz nw a fren of mine asked y i nvr mention in my blog abt him givin me hello kitty magnets...hahaha...ok la...here goes...Ah Beng~~~Kam Sia Li Juey Juey Ah~~~

*sigh* *sigh* *sigh*

dunno recently wad happened to me...always feelin dw @ nite x...issit bcos my dear dear nt wif me & he's wrkin outside & i missed him dearly???or issit tt i hab PMS/menopause or maybe both???hahaha...anyway...life hab to carry on no matter wad kinda mood u carry everyday...juz hab to be lik me lor...luff away the blues in the daytime & den let it come bck & bug u in the nite x wen u're alone...haiz...

i juz hope everyone ard me feels happy...fm the bottom of my heart...

Sour Face

When do ppl show sour face?

1. When they eat sour stuff (eg. sour lemon)... "OoooOOooOOoooOOo"

2. When they smell something disgusting (eg. stale fish)...

3. When they had been thru a hard & tiring day today...

4. When they are feeling sad & moody...

I'm having a sour face today... =~~(

Life

Everyday we awaken with another chance in life.
Sometimes we forget how lucky we are and we often forget to appreciate the little things around us, that means so much.

Too often we don't realise what we have until it is gone.
Too often we wait too late to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong."

Sometimes it seems we always hurt the ones whom we hold dearest to our hearts.
And we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.

Far too many times we let unimportant things into our minds.
And then it's usually too late to see what has made us blind.

So be sure to let people know how much they mean to you.
Take the time to say the words before your time is through.

Be sure to appreciate everything that you've got.
And be thankful for the little things in life that meant alot to you.

Don't wait to say the words "I love you and I really care."
It may not be the best but at least it shows that you care.

Time and tide waits for no man.
Live your life everyday as if it is your last day on earth.

nvr leave hme wif juz 1 cc

hw humiliating...went to "Giant" @ Sembawang S.C. juz nw wif Adrienne & Warsum...den i brought onli 1 credit card out wif me...stupid me...chose to take my DBS Visa card...i tot sis wun spend tt much so tt card sure can use one...somemore ytd juz confirmed wif her tt the card still can use...

got alot of groceries aft shopping in there for quite sometime...juz wen everything was scanned & packed in the plastic shopping bags...the transaction to my credit card was declined thrice...called the bank & realised tt the card had oledi exceeded iz credit limit...shit man...wad can i do???nuttin lor...i can onli leave the groceries there & den come hme empty-handed lor...

haiz...everytime i bring my wallet out...y din i do it tis time round leh???y did i choose to take onli 1 card out ah???haiz...everything seems so "heng" after i had tis haircut...yucks~~~

"24/6" Incident

hmmm...so difficult to pass these 2 days...iz reali a heart-breaking event for me...majority feels tt i'm making a big fuss over a small matter...but to me...everything juz went down...confidence level dropped drastically...

1 day Adrienne's godpa (Paul) sms me askin if i'm interested to be a hair model for a hairshow...ok...wads ur concept of a hairshow???to me...iz models havin their hair "messed" by stylists on the stage...hair being cut in different lengths & styled in different ways...make-up being done before the hairshow...photography expected during the hairshow...wow...tis kinda exposure i wana try leh...sounds interesting leh...tt was wad my hubby tot too...

a day b4 the "hairshow"...i sms Paul askin him y the stylist haben contact me yet???den the stylist's fren called me to tell me to meet the "stylist" (Sam) at Jurong East Interchange @ 2pm...hmmm...i felt abit awkward as in y the venue wil be @ Jurong East Interchange & she told me the salon is called "Cut & Curl"...den i asked her wad do i hab to do???juz go down there lidat wearing anitink simple ah???den she giggle abit said "yalor...anitink u lik..."shucks...i should hab let my curiousity kill the cat...i din ask further & put dw the call...

the next day which was 24/6/05...i met up wif Sam at McDonald's...ok...i'm nt gg into details of the conversation...Sam din noe i'm nt aware tt i'm sittin in as a model for his exam...neither do i...den here comes the frightening part...the requirement of the exam is to do a "bob haircut"...i told Sam i cannot take "bob" look or i'll cry myself til death...he too din wan to cut my hair tt short too...so he asked the invigilator if he could juz cut a little bit but the invigilator said the maximum length is onli til shoulder...but den haiz...so ugly the look...so aft the exam he trimmed bck my hair to luk beta...ya...now my hair is til chin level & it luks stiff & ugly...

of cos i called Paul aft the "hairshow" askin if he knew that Sam was taking his exam & nt doing a hairshow like wad he had told me...Sam's a hairdresser @ EC Hse & nt a stylist @ Jantzen...here comes the best part...Paul knows tt wad i'm gg is nt a hairshow...shit him...y din he tel me???at least i hab the option to choose to reject or take up the offer...if i stil take up the offer aft knowin...@ least i'm mentally prepared mah...sickening thing is Paul asked me hw much i wan in order to compensate for my anger...shit shit shit!!!wad does he tink i m???money-faced???iz reali an insult to me...he has known me comin to 10yrs...i luv my long hair...hw could he said such things to me???

anyway...wads past is past...blamin him is useless...i cant get my long hair bck nw...unless i go for hair extension la which is impossible cos Sam layered my hair too much...all i can do is to wait for my hair to grow bck long again...but i'm nt gg to tok to Paul for the moment...cos i'm stil beli beli sad over the lost of my long hair...i took abt 2yrs to grew it so long & it took less den half an hr to snip everything off...

Good & Bad

Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad.
Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things become a gain.
Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it.
But don't have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life.
Whatever bad things that happen to you, you don't have to feel too sad or despair.
In the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.
If one can understand this, he or she will find life much easier.

Daily Tots

2day the weather is so warm so warm...i wonder hw i can sleep 2nite...terrible hot weather...

Eileen came over to take the baby stuff tis afternoon...wow...her tummy is so big so big as if she's carrying twins...she said the gynea mentioned tt her baby boy is already 1.6kg inside her tummy...wow...such a big boy man...heeheehee...Eileen is still 2 mths away fm her due date...the gynea mentioned that if by due date her baby's too big...den she might hab to opt for the cesarean...but Eileen was all smiles wen we're talking abt her baby boy...happy pregnant mummy we're looking @ here...

oh...i asked Eileen hw's granny recently...she mentioned granny's still the same lor...granny kept asking her if the baby inside her tummy is a gal or a boy...wen Eileen mentioned it's a boy...granny will showed a "thumbs up"...hahaha...is granny oso a "boy" lover???no leh...granny loved me alot alot leh...guess muz be cos i luk lik a boy too wen i was young...hahaha...i missed granny...i reali muz make a trip dw to AMK to visit her 1 of these days...perhaps tmr ah...

i received the last 2 kitty magnets fm my best fren (Jahara) tis afternoon...yeah!!!my kitty village collection set is finally completed...all thks to Jahara...i luv her so much...yeah yeah yeah!!!

tmr i'm gg for a hairshow @ 2.30pm...location is @ Jurong East Interchange...hmmm...i wonder hw much hair they'll snip off fm my head...heard the stylist (Sam) is fm "Cut & Curl" if i din hear wrongly...hmmm...he beta do a gd job tmr or else i tink i'll cry my eyes out liao...hahaha...

i wonder if anyone out there actually misses me or not...u noe wad???i need lotsa luv, care & concern...heeheehee...

Daily Tots

hmmm...wad hab i done today???let me recall bck...

woke up @ 9am...went Sun Plaza to hab breakfast wif my 2 darling gals (Andrea & Adrienne), my maid (Warsum), my sister-in-law (Nana) & her bf (Riduan)...during the trip on the train to Sembawang MRT station...i was seated next to tis old lady wif Adrienne on my laps...den when Adrienne turned over & looked @ the old lady...she cried so loudly...hahaha...the old lady's smile must hab scared her off...after breakfast...we took a free shuttle bus to Sembawang Shopping Centre's "Giant" to shop for groceries...u know hw much i spent there???scary man...$190++...wad hab i bought???well...the children pampers & milk powder already costs up to $100+...

i slept lik a piggy fm 3pm - 420pm...woke up together wif Andrea & Nana...den we started to munch greedily on our biscuits til daddy (Roy) wakes up...hmmm...as usual...after Roy gets a bite, a smoke followed by his bathe...he's off to wrk again...

aft bathing Andrea...we bought fried rice fm downstairs coffeeshop...as usual aft dinner...Andrea watches her vcds while i sits in front of the pc & chats on the MSN...

oh ya...today Adrienne finally turned herself over (lie on her stomach) on the bed...we were all so surprised...she's onli 4 & a half mths old yet she can turn herself over already...wad a clever gal...she's reali a darling...she can sit on the walker wen she's onli 4mths...

actually i was tinkin...wad kinda lifestyle do i hab???tis morn i saw couples bringin their kids for breakfast...y is my hubby sleeping @ hme???iz bcos he juz came bck in the morn aft his late nite wrk...family time is almost zero wif him nw...

Deep In Tots

sometimes in life u juz wonder wad makes a perfect man???actually there is no perfect man in tis world...everyone have their own flaws...iz juz hw gd they managed to cover it all up so that everything u see in him is perfect...

tink abt urself...r u perfect too???no...u've gt more flaws u can ever imagine...there's always more den meets the eye...u tot u're onli weak in tis area...but wen u luk deeper & tink harder...u'll realised tt "hey luk...in fact there's more worst things abt me tt i nvr once realised until someone else mentions abt it..."

the trouble is...majority will shun away fm the topic of correctin himself/herself to become better...they keep every negative points abt themselves deep at the back of their mind...so at the end of the day...he/she will feel negative abt their life...tt's wen depression comes into the pic...

the problem is...i'm 1 of them too...i'm in depression mode as well...dun ask me y...cos i dunno too...

1st blog

2day is a reali demoralised day...the new job (secretary @ Global Refund) i interviewed last week...the lady is supposed to cal me 2day...but haiz...no hope liao since she nvr call up...i tink i pinned too much hopes on it liao...if nt i wun be so dejected nw...

i tink recently everything went "bonkers" in my life...ceiling @ storeroom found water leakage...doc diagnosed me as anaemic...aircon for all 3 rms down cos the electronic board spoilt...quarrelled wif the aircon sales co-ordinator...sent out so many resumes but none replied...tell me wad has gone wrong???

i tink i'm stressin myself too much...lost weight/hair...always feelin giddy...$ always nt enuff...wad is reali happenin to my world???

i'm always tellin myself...relax la...everything wil be fine tmr...the sun always shines brighter tmr...there're lotsa wonderful things waitin to happen everyday...so y wori so much???dun wori & be happi...