Irritated!!

why the fart smell cannot go away??!! yucks!! i tink d designer behind me farted.. nw the air is filled wif tt smell & i cant get outta ofc!! shitz!! dammit!!

IRRITATED!!

Declare Fresh Air!!

Wrongs

i noe i've done wrong.. wadever i've chosen.. is a wrong.. but i cant turn bck nw.. i really cant.. i dun hab a choice.. dun force me..

Life

ppl always tell me.. God is fair.. how fair?? hw do we gauge??

my life?? i cant be bothered abt it @ d moment.. since iz alrdy so messy..

frenz who take ppl lik me for granted.. many in tis world.. countless.. but y does it hab to happen so many times a yr?? a test to my endurance level?? a test against my patience??

a gf of mine.. had an unhappy incident.. dun wana share here thou.. but i dun tink iz fair for her lor.. i wonder wad greater plans Daddy has for her?? thou she's nt Daddy's child.. yet..

some other ppl.. embraced wif Daddy's luv.. misuses it.. misinterprets it.. spoils it..

Get A Life

dammit!! dun u f**kin hell irritate me!! i'm alrdy v tolerant towards u!! dun u push ur f**kin luck!! aHHHHHhhhhhHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

y do i hab to tolerate all ur nonsense?? f**k off man.. u always made my blood boil when i tok to u!! thou i dun tell it in ur face.. get tis f**kin rite.. u f**k off my life beta!!

aaahhhhhhHHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bcos of u.. i had to re-edit my blog & chng d contents.. i'm so f**kin pissed off wif u nw.. ahhhhHHHHHhhhh!!!!!

*names hab been left out for protection purpose*

extracted fm www.rbc.org:
He who has knowledge spares his words. Someone who displays wisdom will think before speaking, and then will share only insights likely to be helpful. A man of understanding is of a calm spirit. A mature person exhibits understanding by keeping cool in conflict. The next time you become angry, stop and prayerfully reflect for a moment. Ask God for a calm spirit and the right words to say. Remember, cooler heads prevail.

Dear Daddy.. pls take away d anger in me.. take away all d bad thots runnin in my mind.. pls cast d devil outta me nw.. pls gimme a calm spirit.. pls forgive me Daddy.. in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Happy??

i'm really unhappy..
unhappy wif my life..
unhappy wif my work..
unhappy wif almost everything now..

i wana be happy..
declare happiness!!
declare favour!!
declare abundance joy!!

reGreTs

i always tell myself.. never live my life wif regrets..
nw i'm startin to regret in almost everything i do..

am i happy?? at times..
am i sad?? quite frequently..

someone once told me.. i used to smile fm my heart..
nw my smile is only on d surface..
quite true.. i totally agree on tis comment..

i dun u'stan where has all d happiness gone to??
m i nt supposed to hab it??
m i nt worth of havin it??

i'm tired once again..
mentally.. physically.. spiritually..

Someday.. Sometime..

what hab i done??
what needs to be done??

emotions overrule my mind & heart..
i cant do wad needs to be done..

its a ripple effect..
decisions i make nw causes other effects on others..
all d consequences i've to face nw..

its ok..
someday.. sometime..
all will be done..

forgive me..

Misinterpreted / Misunderstood/ Taken For Granted

issit beta to b misinterpreted/misunderstood by others by wad you've just said?? or issit beta to b taken for granted for the things that you've done??

it seems lik i'm always at d wrong place.. at d wrong time.. is tis a joke??

its nvr a coincidence why we're at sm places.. its always for a purpose.. like why sm of us are here & why sm had to go elsewhere..

tryin to multi-task here.. but in d end.. kena multiplied (burden)..

am tryin to keep d faith strong.. keep it thr.. its hard thou.. but i must learn to believe..

Daily Thots

smtin's just nt rite wif tis r/s.. i just cant make out wads wrong..

assumptions:

- he's nt so much of a "I Love Daddy" person??

- we dun share a common interest/topic??

- he really loves me a lot.. but for d rite reasons??

but we do nt judge others by:

- their academic qualifications..

- their income status..

- their daily habits in life..

- their characters..

bcos our Daddy do not judge us too.. no matter wad.. eventually when we all become COG.. we're all blessed & connected in Jesus' name..

wad can i say?? wad can i do??

Dear Daddy.. pls lead d way.. pls hold my hand tightly.. pls guide me thru tis difficult period.. let me make no more mistakes.. no more.. & pray that Daddy you'll rmber my sins no more.. in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Daily Thots

suddenly felt like bloggin aft being away for such a long time..

shifted to a new place in JW abt 3wks ago.. rented a rm which costs me $480/mth (c/w mattress/aircon/cupboard).. stayin wif a young couple (wife same age as me, hubby older than me 2-3yrs) & they hab 2 kids.. Donovan is 6yrs old & Krystel is 3yrs old.. d kids are cute & r quite well-mannered.. they'll greet me "JieJie" when they see me.. esp Krystel.. nice havin them ard.. heex..

at times they're quite noisy in d living rm & their parents always worry tt i might b disturbed by their noises.. in fact.. i enjoyed their noises.. feels hme.. i simply missed my gals.. at times i hear them play outside wif their parents.. i'll start to tink.. y cant i hab such a life?? i used to hab it.. where has it gone to?? tinkin & tinkin makes me cry.. haiz.. crybaby attack..

anyway.. still nt v used to stayin outside on my own.. at times i wake up in d middle of d nite (nitemares again) & when i realised there isn't a close kin wif me in d hse.. i start cryin again.. i felt so lonely.. so alone in tis world..

d trip hme fm wrk is nt as bad as my 1st nite bck.. suddenly in d train all unfamilar faces.. none i've seen b4.. i sms-ed Jie.. & i cried in d train.. stupid ppl keep starin at me machiam i'm some alien.. hahaha..

haiz.. here i am.. eating cup noodles & studyin for my exams.. kinda missed some gd old oiliness in my life.. hahaha..

thou i'm nt v happy at times.. still pondering if i've made a wrong move in life.. but.. life still goes on..

Dear Daddy.. pray that You'll continue to watch over me.. Bless me in every areas of my life & take care of ALL things in my life.. Gimme d strength to be able to work & study at the same time.. Bless all my love ones.. All these I pray in Jesus' name.. Amen~

Daily Thots

why are there some people who can try 1 time and die so easily, while some people can try all means but still never succeed and die??

life is so tough.. so many decisions to make.. so many consequences to face.. so many unhappiness.. so many sorrows.. so many past to remember..

are you happy with your life?? am i happy with my life?? beats me too.. who can answer my question??

so tired.. very tired.. damn tired.. emotionally tired.. physically tired..

Daily Thots

sometimes i just wonder what did i do wrong?? must i do everything you like or felt is correct?? or am i supposed to live a life that is considered my own or yours??

i appreciate all your kind thoughts.. all your concern.. but.. don't do that to me when i do something that is against how you felt it should be..

a penny for my thoughts??

God bless~

Daily Thots

life is getting tough.. alot of changes here and there.. alot of new happenings in my life.. alot of decisions i've to make.. alot of consequences i've to face.. alot of burdens on my shoulder..

whatever it may be.. i'll never want to be a burden to anybody nor be an obstacle in anybody's life or relationship..

God bless all around me..

Movie Nite - Death Race

Rating: NC16
Consumer Advice: Some violence and coarse language
Genre: Action-Thriller
Language: English
Director: Paul W.S. Anderson
Cast: Jason Statham, Joan Allen, Tyrese Gibson, Ian McShane

Jason Statham leads the cast of an action-thriller set in the post-industrial wasteland of tomorrow, with the world’s most brutal sporting event as its backdrop. A penitentiary full of felons has inspired the jailers to create a grisly pastime ripe for lucrative kickbacks. Now, adrenalized inmates, a global audience hungry for televised violence and a spectacular arena come together to form the Death Race.

Three-time speedway champion Jensen Ames (Statham) is an expert at survival in the harsh landscape that has become our country. Just as he thinks he has turned his life around, the ex-con is framed for a gruesome murder he didn’t commit. Forced to don the mask of the mythical driver Frankenstein—a crowd favorite who seems impossible to kill—Ames is given an easy choice by Terminal Island’s warden (Joan Allen): suit up or rot away in a cell.

His face hidden by a metallic mask, one convict will be put through an insane three-day challenge. Ames must survive a gauntlet of the most vicious criminals in the country’s toughest prison to claim the prize of freedom. Driving a monster car outfitted with machine guns, flamethrowers and grenade launchers, one desperate man will destroy anything in his path to win the most twisted spectator sport on Earth.

This action-thrill movie is insane man.. but i simply loved the speed.. too fast too violent.. see the way they drive thru all the traps and gunshots fired by the opponents.. dammit.. when can i drive at such a speed man??!!

overall.. thumbs up man!!

愛

人生就是為了找尋愛的過程，
每個人的人生都要找到四個人
第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.

首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，學會了愛，才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，能夠相處一輩子的人。
但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。

你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？


沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你 。

當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？

愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。
換句話說，你愛一個人，也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，

如果你真愛一個人，就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。

真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、心情好壞，你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，也就是沒有絲毫要求。

畢竟，感情必須付出，而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。

兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛!

明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒；
就算會，也活不到那時候。
許下諾言的時候千萬注意，不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，隨便說說也不要緊，

請記住：”不可能實現的諾言最動人”
在愛情裡，說的是一套，做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，聽的人也不相信。

你呢？找到了第幾個？
茫茫人海中，你遇見了誰？誰又遇見了你？

Daily Thots

wad am i doin wif my life? is it d way i wan things to be?
i'm tired. v tired. super tired. extremely tired.
dun pity me. dun look at me differently. i'm just an ordinary person.

but i'm also special in a way. i'm a Child Of God.
i'm clinging to the cross. Daddy will take care of ALL things.
Amen~

Daily Thots

here i am.. sitting in the office.. waiting for the internal meeting to start.. its a Saturday leh.. why ask us to come back at 930am?? i didn't sleep enough you know?? these few days work is already so much yet Saturday also don't let me sleep longer??!!

haiz.. what can i say?? all i can do is sit infront of the computer and browse thru the internet.. click on facebook.. blog abit here and there.. check email (personal only)..

so tired.. so sleepy.. so hungry..

later going Excelsior Hotel.. Allan & Clara's baby daughter, Chloe's baby shower.. buy what for her leh?? don't know wor.. later fetch the kids go shop awhile.. if can't find anything.. then will give them red packet le..

anyway.. hope my GPS works.. if not.. think i'll be doing my rounds in town again.. petrol rounds.. hahaha..

ahhh!! can the meeting quickly start?? OMG!!

Movies with Colleagues "The Dark Knight "

Rating: PG
Language: English
Director: Christopher Nolan
Cast: Christian Bale, Heath Ledger, Aaron Eckhart, Maggie Gyllenhaal, Gary Oldman, Michael Caine, Morgan Freeman
Runtime: 153 mins

The follow-up to the action hit “Batman Begins," "The Dark Knight”reunites director Christopher Nolan and star Christian Bale, who reprises the role of Batman/Bruce Wayne in his continuing war on crime.

With the help of Lieutenant Jim Gordon and District Attorney Harvey Dent, Batman sets out to destroy organized crime in Gotham for good. The triumvirate proves to be effective, but they soon find themselves prey to a rising criminal mastermind known as the Joker, who thrusts Gotham into anarchy and forces the Dark Knight ever closer to crossing the fine line between hero and vigilante.

Academy Award nominee Heath Ledger (“Brokeback Mountain”) stars as arch-villain The Joker, and Aaron Eckhart plays District Attorney Harvey Dent. Maggie Gyllenhaal joins the cast in the role of Rachel Dawes. Returning from “Batman Begins” are Gary Oldman as Lieutenant Jim Gordon; Oscar winner Michael Caine (“The Cider House Rules”) as Alfred; and Oscar winner Morgan Freeman (“Million Dollar Baby”) as Lucius Fox.

Watched this movie with Joanna, May, Nicholas & his wife, Jintao & his wife, Kaili & Junhui. Worth the money and time to watch but the cinema we went to was the one at Marina Square. The few of us, those with longer legs, ended up having slight cramps to kneecaps and backache. Hmmm.. Next time want to watch such a movie with a long runtime, must make sure we choose a cinema with good seating.

Overall rating : Great!!

Daily Thots

What is wrong with me? Why can't I control my emotions well? How irresponsible can I be? How can I put other people's life at stake?

Dammit!! I'm so utterly disappointed with myself!! So damn angry with myself!!

But then again, I really thank God for taking care of everything. Really thank Him for not letting anything major happened nor let anyone get injured due to my carelessness. Praise the Lord!

tired

i'm tired.. so tired.. very tired.. extremely tired.. unexplainable tiredness..

Why?

why are you so curious so concerned to find out where i went and whom i work for?! why do you need to ask others why they employ me?! you really have a problem wif me?! i treated you so kind yet you treated me that way and i already decided to let it go.. but why is it that i'm already out of that place for such a long time and yet you still want to check on me?! can you just wake up your fxxking mind?! go get something better to do!! be more professional and more matured will you?!

i just don't understand why some people can behave this way?? they have nothing better to do or they are just so damn kaypoh?!

i'm so irritated with you!! kindly just go get a life!! go live a normal life!! you really pissed me off!!!

^$$%£"%)(*&^^£"&*()_$%!"*

what happened??

ytd wasn't such a pleasant nite but all thanks to Daddy that i survived..

supposingly aft church svc i had to rush to NLB to meet my sch mates to discuss on our project.. time arranged was 4.30pm.. aft svc ended at abt 4.30pm.. instead of rushin to NLB i went dinner wif my church mates as it had been awhile since i last chatted wif them.. they're always so kind to me so i really missed hanging out wif them.. they even purposely drove fm Suntec to Bugis so that we can hab dinner together and i could go off to NLB fm there.. how nice of them rite?? halfway thru d trip thr my HP kept ringin.. msgs keep comin in.. all fm my sch mates askin my whereabouts.. cut d story short.. i reached NLB at abt 6.30pm.. 1 of d gals keep "attackin" me and gave me a super black face.. she said alot of unpleasant things but i chose to keep quiet instead of arguin back.. in d end at abt 7pm.. conculsion given by them was i am to finish typin d entire project and email to them by Tues for them to assess.. and presentation was to be done by me also.. dammit.. i argued abit but was useless.. so i agreed to do it.. sicko me..

in between.. due to d fact i need to get my prev study materials bck fm my ex's place.. ended up kena shouted by him on d phone thrice.. i dun u'stan y ppl hab to treat me lidat.. while i was drivin to Woodlands.. i was so angry so "lost" that i was driving pretty fast and even had d thots of just rammin my car towards d centre divider.. devil attack.. Daddy knew wad was happenin to me.. Daddy shut my thots out.. fm Mandai to Woodlands my mind was a blank.. no thots nuttin.. it was lik a split second i realised i was at Woodlands alrdy.. when i saw my kids.. peace came into my heart..

haiz.. worst still.. quarrelled wif ZQ twice as well.. sick leh.. y so many things ytd??

i'm carryin too many things on my shoulder.. its so heavy.. i feel so tired.. can i let go of everything?? can i??

i noe Daddy will never ever let go of me.. Daddy loves me.. i love Daddy too..

Daily Thots

wad is happening to me?? why am i being so insensitive now?? why did i spent so much time on 1 person yet neglected another impt person in my life?? i dun mean that gal is not worth my time.. but this gal that i've neglected is so much more impt to me.. i felt so guilty and almost cried when i heard abt her feelin that we're not as close as b4.. i nvr wanted our friendship to turn out this way.. nvr will i wan to..

i dunno wad to say.. sayin sorry is not enuff.. pray that time will wash away all the unhappiness and misunderstandings and bring forth a beta and stronger friendship between us..

ytd English Skills results i got 28 upon 30.. i felt so sad and disappointed that i couldn't score full marks.. thkq to all those who said that i am good and that you're proud of me for scorin such marks.. i felt beta now.. ready to chiong for my test on Fri also..

haiz.. time is nvr enuff for me.. i've to juggle between work/sch/family/frenz.. time is not enuff lehz.. magic magic.. where are my magic powers??!! i wan more time more time..

juz reached hme aft wrk.. v tired.. v shagged out.. shaggy old doggie.. kekeke.. gotta spend time revision again.. tmr Quantitative Skills test.. pray for Favour!!

Daddy.. i leave it all in your good hands.. healing comes just being a child of God.. Amen~

tiredness falls in

u nvr noticed d coldness in the tone when u called?? hw insensitive can u be?? u nvr realised u've done smtin wrong to make me treat u this way??

hw much more can i say?? i'm so tired of everything.. so tired.. so tired..

can u pls wake up and u'stan my feelings?? u need me to spell out your faults??

so very tired

so wad if thr's Skype?? it doesn't make any difference at all if d other party is not concentrating on the chat wif u.. i rather stop d conversation and nt chat.. it doesn't cure d misses.. it increases d anger.. angry of being so far away.. long distance r/s is so difficult to handle.. i doubt i can handle it well..

nw i tink bck.. y do i wana stay hme and wait for a call when i could be out thr enjoyin myself?? and in d end.. get myself so angry over a small little thing.. i've doubts over my own decisions nw..

startin a new career and studies at d same time isn't easy at all.. i wana focus on my job but i've no time for my studies.. i wana focus on my studies yet i cant do much on my work.. doin both at d same time left me wif v little time readin God's words and also no time for my kids.. is these all wrong decisions made by me?? wad should i do?? its nt abt my time mgmt skills.. i alrdy cut away d gatherings and outings wif frenz yet i cant do much on anywhere else..

i'm tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so damn tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. extremely tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so so so so tired.. v tired.. super super tired.. v tired.. extremely extremely tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so tired..

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.. i'm breakin dw again.. dammit..

Highly Favoured..Greatly Loved..Deeply Blessed..

no matter how hard life is.. my Heavenly Father is still blessing me with abundance love.. i've a wonderful sister and brother-in-law.. they really loved me alot and really dote on me alot.. i wont take their love for granted..

Jie and Jie Fu.. sorry if i made both of you worried when i cried.. i'm just too overloaded.. too stressed out alrdy.. thkq for loving me so much.. i love the both of you alot too..

i wont fail Daddy, both of you, TB, people who love me, and myself.. i'll give it my best in my work and studies..

God bless all..

Daily Thots

you're such a faker.. you pretend everything's ok.. but behind me.. you're a backstabber.. whatever u wana say or wana do.. it's your choice.. my passion towards my work will not be affected wif your actions.. you wana do it this way.. go ahead.. now i u'stan why you said that you dun hab much close frenz cos they all misinterpret your words.. i can tell you.. it's got nothing to do with them not understanding you.. it's you.. you alrdy offended me on too many occasions but i din wana tell u straight at your face.. last time i wont.. in future i also wont.. cos i tink your attitude sucks.. sucks badly.. and i'm gonna let you live it this way cos i dun care.. you dun deserved my respect for you cos aft treating you so nice.. you turned ard and bit me when things went wrong.. things that went wrong due to your carelessness and forgetfulness becomes my fault.. i seriously felt that i dun deserved to be treated like that by you.. all the best to you for whatever choice you had made today.. all i can do is pray that the company will not be affected by your carelessness and forgetfulness..

Dear Daddy.. pls take away my anger.. bless me with a positive attitude in my work.. do not let me be affected by such a backstabber.. let me continue to enjoy doing the job i've always loved and found fulfillment in.. pray that Daddy you'll bless me, the people ard me, and the place where i am in.. Amen!

Irritated

can u stop chngin ur mind!!! set up starts tmr.. wad is wrong wif u??!! how r we supposed to work efficiently in this matter when the changes should hab been pointed out in the beginning.. its nt minor changes u know??

Oh Daddy.. pls gimme the strength to overcome this.. pls stop all these irritating issues..

.....

feel so lost.. cant concentrate at work.. cant do anitink rite.. so many things on my mind nw.. very dis-orientated and dis-organised nw.. wad kinda english words m i using nw?? i dun even u'stan at all..

feel like giving up.. started new job and studies at the same time.. now i cant cope.. cant cope at all.. i m so tired.. so tired.. so tired..

i need time out.. need to run away.. need to stay away.. need to hide away.. need to go away..

God provides abundantly

Woo Hoo~~

Went "prawning" with ZQ/Rina/Dean/Sean/Iris/Esther/Terence after church service. In fact, I didn't have much hopes of catching anything, or I should say catch much as the last time when I went "prawning" with them, I was the only person who had zero catch for the night. Sad right?

Anyway, I prayed with ZQ about it during our drive there. Prayed that Father will provide us with abundance harvest. Prayed that we'll have the most catch for that night. Amen!

We decided to compete as teams. The paired teams were me & ZQ, Iris & Esther, Dean & Terence, Sean & Rina. The loser teams were supposed to wash the prawns and bbq the prawns for the winning teams. Ready or not... Here it goes... 3 hours competition begins...

As usual, it started off very "bek chek" for us as everyone around us got their catch except for us. ZQ caught 2 prawns with his bare hands. (hahahaha) Didn't mean to do it like that but the prawns were resting on our net so why not just catch it and put in inside our net right? (hahahaha)

Slowly, time passes by. ZQ caught 1 prawn and I caught about 2 prawns. Whenever I felt the prawn nibble on my bait, I'll pull the bait too fast till the prawn will escape everytime it reaches the surface of the pond. Oh no... Sean & Rina's team had such a big catch. Made me felt even worst. I started singing and praying for Daddy to provide me with abundance harvest, plentiful prwans.

Coming to the last hour or less, I had continuous catch. Wooh!! The feel of getting a catch is so wonderful so fun. I was so excited whenever I caught a prawn.

Here comes the final count. After deducting away the 2 prawns ZQ caught with his bare hands, we won Sean & Rina's team by 1 prawn. 9 vs 8. Yeah!!!!!! Me & ZQ won by 1 prawn. Praise the Lord! I caught 8 prawns all by myself. Isn't Daddy so great so wonderful? But poor ZQ, because I had so much fun, I didn't share my rod with him. (hahahaha) Next time dude, I promised to share my rod with you. (hehehehe)

After returning our rods, we went to bbq the prawns. Oh wow!!!! The prawns were just so tasty so sweet. I enjoyed the entire fellowship for that night cos we were all having so much fun. Praise the Lord!

Went to have prata after that and at that place, we made plans for next Sat and Sun. It's gonna be a long nite out again. (*^_^*)

Manga Messiah

Praise the Lord!!
Ask and it shall be given..

ZQ bought me the book "Manga Messiah".. *muacks* (^_^)
I'm gonna find time out soon to read it..

Manga Messiah

Appealing to kids and adults, readers will find this edgy rendition of the Gospel accounts both compelling and highly engaging. This authentic, cutting-edge art style is combined with fast-paced storytelling to deliver biblical truths to an ever-changing culture that is often a challenge to penetrate. This is genuine Japanese manga style, unlike other Christian "manga" books in the marketplace.

Features:

• Gives a unique presentation of the Gospel accounts

• Includes a map of Galilee, Samaria, and Judea

• Includes illustrated character profiles of key Bible people

• Features an illustrated page on the twelve apostles

• A great way to introduce anyone to the Bible

I'm want this book and is currently searching for it. Wonder who can find it for me?

Movie Review

"Step Up 2 the Streets" is the follow-up to the smash hit "Step Up," which ignited theaters in August 2006. When rebellious street dancer Andie (Briana Evigan) lands at the elite Maryland School of the Arts, she finds herself fighting to fit in while also trying to hold onto her old life. When she joins forces with the school's hottest dancer Chase (Robert Hoffman) to form a crew of classmate outcasts to compete in Baltimore's underground dance battle The Streets, she ultimately finds a way to live her dream while building a bridge between her two separate worlds.

Featuring the directorial debut of award-winning up-and-comer Jon M. Chu, "Step Up 2 the Streets" reunites much of the production team behind the original film including "Step Up's" cutting-edge hip-hop choreographer Jamal Sims, who is joined this time by choreographers Hi-Hat ("hip-hop's high diva of dance") and Dave Scott ("Stomp the Yard"). Patrick Wachsberger & Erik Feig of Summit Entertainment produce with Adam Shankman and Jennifer Gibgot of Offspring Entertainment.

This movie is too good to resist. The way they danced, the passion they bring out in their dance, its fabulous man... They are really very good dancers and they really have the groove man... How i wished I could dance like them too, which seems impossible. (hahahaha) The storyline is good too. It shows how united they are even when the odds are against them. Don't miss this show. Let's go dancing out in the streets baby~

Daily Thots

spent the day at NLB with ZQ doing some research.. sounds kinda unlike me sial.. hahaha.. i still remembered d last time my ex-colleagues heard tt i'm gg to spent my time at d NLB.. they looked shocked.. ya.. shocked was d expression they gave me.. wa biangz eh.. i gt study one hor.. last time la.. kekeke..

dinner time came.. both ZQ and myself met up with Jie and Francis at Bugis.. we went to the restaurant called Ma Maison.. hmmm.. the food is delicious.. and the environment is quite cosy..

we had our 1st try on escargots.. it looks abit scary but in fact it tasted quite nice lor.. of cos you have to dip it in d sauce la.. if its without d sauce.. i tink i beta opt this dish outta my mouth.. err... cos the slimy feel of it sends d trembles down my nerves.. kekeke..

d sirloin steak i ordered was delicious man.. the beef was so tender and juicy.. fabulous.. fantastic.. yummy..

next stop.. Chinatown for our D24 durians.. yeah!! both me & ZQ won d D24 durians aft a snooker session at OCC last Sat.. so today we made our claim for the prize.. yummy yummy.. so long nvr eat durians le.. so delicious..

nw all d fart and d burps are filled with d D24 durians smell.. errr.. kinda yucky thou.. hahahahahahahahahahaha.. (^_^)

Diploma in Business Administration (DBA)

I've enrolled with PSB Academy for the next intake in 7 May 08. Hope that the application for the subsidy with NTUC gets approved in time.

Classes: Weds and Fri, 7pm to 10pm
Venue: PSB Academy, next to Tiong Bahru Plaza
Duration : 300 hours (7 May 08 to 31 Dec 09)

Modules:
1) English Skills
2) Quantitative Skills
3) Principles of Economics
4) Financial Accounting 1
5) Principles of Marketing
6) Principles of Human Resource Management
7) Basic Business Statistics
8) Introduction to Organisational Behaviour
9) E-Commerce Management
10) Introduction to Business Policy and Strategy

Course fees :
Total => $3,959.00
After SDF-AIP => $1,859.00

Course fee excludes textbooks
- each module 1 textbook (est. $50 per textbook)

Pray that Father you'll watch over me. Bless me with the correct attitude to learn and the ability to understand all that will be taught. Amen!

Daily Thots

i'm finally outta Watsons le!!! yipeee!!!

hmmm.. felt abit "lost" in the beginning but now starting to feel much beta le.. now i've abit more time for myself le.. have the time to chat wif frenz on msn.. catch up abit here and there.. heex (^_^)

oh.. i'm going to take my Dip in Biz Admin at PSB in May 08.. very excited abt it cos i've been wanting to do so for quite a long time le.. hope this time round i can really make it.. dun say say onli ah.. hahahaha..

hmmm.. tinking back.. life's been gd for me.. thou i cried so much abt work.. cried so much abt the hurt and injustice at work.. but it is also bcos of Watsons.. i got to know many nice ppl.. really very nice ppl.. thus i'll nvr regret joining Watsons..

Thank you Father for every single moment in my life. I know that Father you'll continue to watch over me and my loved ones and bless us in everything that we do. Pray that Father you'll continue to strengthen our faith and manifest your blessings on us. Amen!

Wads Wrong??!!

wads wrong with her?? or perhaps, wads wrong wif me?? why does she need to treat me like that?? since she detest me so much.. why don't she just ask HR to give me 2mths pay and ask me to leave?? why wana make up this show and pretend to be Ms Nice when she's in fact Ms Evil?? i m no threat to her.. i'm still her subordinate ok??!!!

it hurts me alot whenever i tink abt her treatment towards me.. after so much so much i've done for her fought for her.. wad happened to it all?? she gets memory failure or wad??

so sad whenever i see whatever she's doing to hurt me and all the act she's putting infront of everybody.. does it matter so much to her for me to stay there and serve my 2mths?? wad issit she has against me that makes her wana let everyone buy her story and make me leave with immediate effect??

i nvr regret joinin that company cos of all the nice people i know thr.. in fact.. they're also a reason why i chose to continue staying thr..

but wads the use.. cant fight emotional wars with her.. she's just too much.. she goes around spreading rumors and putting poison in all the higher mgmt people's ears.. i really hope one fine day she gets played by her own game that she had set..

i really hope she'll wake up and open her eyes big enuff to see why 3 people under her has left.. i hope the higher mgmt people can really really open their eyes and ears to see wad is really happening rather than time to time always buy her story like she so pathetic always kena bullied by her subordinates..

oh Heavenly Father.. i pray that you will take away my anger, take away my pain, take away my sorrows, take away all my tears.. pray that Father you'll take away the ''stamps'' in other people's eyes and let them see the real truth behing it all.. pray that Father you'll takeover from here and restore me back physically and emotionally.. pray that Father you'll let no other person be unfairly treated like i was being treated here.. and in all these I pray in Jesus name.. Amen!!

The One Thing - Daily Devotional From New Creation Church

Forgiveness Is For The Undeserving

Matthew 18:2121… “Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?”

The Lord’s answer to Peter was simple: Up to seventy times seven. (Matthew 18:22) In other words, all the time!

“Well, Pastor Prince, he does not deserve my forgiveness.”

Neither did you deserve God’s. Listen, there is not a single person alive or dead who did not break all 10 of God’s commandments. There is no such thing as a “partial sinner” or “great sinner”. All of us were great sinners when Jesus saved us! And we need to have that revelation because if we know that we are forgiven much, we will love much. (Luke 7:47)

“Pastor Prince, how can you say that I have broken all 10 commandments? I have not committed adultery. I have been true to my wife since the day we were married.”

My friend, Jesus said, “If you lust after a woman in your heart, you have already committed adultery with her.” (Matthew 5:28) That is God’s standard. Man looks outward, but God looks inward. God sees the heart. So everyone has broken all 10 commandments. Everyone is a great sinner.

Now, you are no longer a sinner if you have received Christ as your Saviour — you are now a new creation. But you were a sinner and God forgave all your sins through the death of His Son. You owed God big time, but God forgave you of your huge debt through His Son’s death.

So if someone has wronged you, say this: “I did not deserve God’s forgiveness, but God forgave me through Christ. So I forgive this person also in Jesus’ name.” If you say something like, “He does not deserve it,” it makes no sense. Forgiveness is not for people who deserve it. If they deserve something, then it is punishment. No, forgiveness means that you extend grace. Grace means undeserved favour, like how God extends undeserved favour to you.

If you choose to hold on to bitterness, no one suffers but you. You lose your peace, health and sometimes even your life. It is not worth it! God says to you, “Let go. Forgive them their debts, just as I have forgiven you yours.” Don’t try to do it on your own. Bring the cross of Christ into the situation and you will find the grace to forgive!

Answers to Tough Qns [rbc ministries]

Should I be concerned about this cloud of hopelessness that seems to hang over me?

Hopelessness is a dreadful feeling. The Bible says, "Hope deferred makes the heart sick" (Proverbs 13:12). Many people go through times when they know something is terribly wrong, but they often can't put their finger on it. All they can explain is a strong sense that nothing is going to work out.

It's unwise to ignore chronic feelings of hopelessness. Our souls cannot live for long in a state of perceived hopelessness. Hope is the oxygen of the soul. Without a hopeful outlook, our souls will eventually suffocate.

Our dilemma is that a hopeful perspective is as fragile as it is indispensable. Situations beyond our control can delay the fulfillment of hope and leave us in a fog of uncertainty and despair. As hope seems to be collapsing all around us, the potential exists to lose heart and slip into a state of depression.

Depression is a troubled mood or state of the soul that has a dramatic effect on our bodies. We lose energy. Sleeping and eating patterns become abnormal. And we have difficulty concentrating.

Depression can be mild or major. The more depression interferes with a person's ability to sleep, to eat, to work, to focus, and to enjoy life, the greater the severity of depression, and the greater need there is to be concerned.

Sometimes a depressive mood lifts for no apparent reason. Usually, however, depression doesn't work itself out over time. Left to itself, it can linger on like an old injury that slowly wears a person down. Over time, it can grow into a severe debilitating problem. That's why it's important for those who are depressed to seek help.

An honest reflection of the following statements can alert a person to a potential problem with depression:
> I feel sad or shut down nearly every day.
> I have little or no interest in doing things I used to enjoy.
> I'm sleeping too little or too much.
> I'm eating too little or too much.
> I feel tired most of the time.
> I find it difficult to stay focused.
> I've lost interest in physical intimacy with my spouse.
> I feel overwhelmed by the burdens of life.
> I don't hold out much hope that my life will improve in the future.
> I shift between feeling helpless and unworthy to feeling angry and cheated.
> I think about death or killing myself.

Those who identify with two to four of the above statements should, at the very least, consider seeing a physician for a complete medical checkup. Sometimes these are symptoms of a pure medical condition. Those who identify with five or more of the above statements should consider seeking immediate professional help.

[I've identified at least 9 outta 11... how??]

Why?

i just dun u'stan y they wana treat me lidat??
i dun deserve all these unfair treatment..
i've already given my best but they still think otherwise..
y r they so cruel to me??
y can't they be nice to me??

sometimes i just think wad issit that i did wrong to deserve all these??
issit my problem that i really cant perform??
they really break my confidence in my own work now..

i dread going to work..
i dread sitting beside them..
i dread seeing them..

wad have i done wrong??

brand new life as a christian

i must learn and be able to:
- let go of the unhappy past
- accept all that has happened
- love my enemies
- stop all the curse and swears
- love and treasure my life
- live a godly life
- put all my cares and trust in God
- live each day to the fullest without regrets
- worship and praise God constantly
- set a good example as a christian
- let others feel the love God has given to me

[to be updated again]

Daily Thots

suddenly had alot of emotions coming in..
sad.. hurt.. betrayed.. angry.. lost.. disappointed.. frustrated.. self-pity.. loneliness.. worthless.. relieved.. doubts.. liar..

oh wadever..
say too much also wrong.. becomes grumbling..
dun say anything also wrong.. becomes unfriendly and proud..

so hard to please everyone including myself..
so difficult to feel happy at times..

best method?? keep ur comments to yourself..
nt everyone has time or has mood for you..