Healthy Lifestyle Begins With Me

Today is a damn shag day. Now I felt like a shaggy old doggie. hahaha…

Must be wondering why I’m so shag right? Heex. Went for the Mizuno Run at Mount Faber today morning at 7.30am. It’s a 10km run ok? Mai siao siao leh. I’m a long distance runner by default hor. hahaha…

I finished the race in about an hour and 30 minutes. But that’s very good for 1st timers like me who never had any training beforehand ok? This was my 1st 10km run you know? Now my legs ached like mad and my headache was so bad in the afternoon. Such a bad after-race torture. haiz…

Oh ya. Then there was this woman who came in 10th position who went up stage to collect her prize. You know what? She didn’t wear any bra and her nipples were so obvious. Dammit. There’re so many people who participated in the race, but being open-minded is not like that ok? Save the “nipple-look” at home or somewhere else lady. haiz…

But afterall, it was quite fun. I’ll be participating in more runs in the future, it’s a great workout thou. And of cause, I’m also being attracted there by the goodie bags they’re giving out. hahahaha…

Any interested friends who want to join me I’ll definitely welcome them. Let’s have a healthy lifestyle together my loved ones.

My Life

I don’t blame God who created me and gave me this life. God is always fair. Whatever he gives you with abundance, there must be something he’ll not give you sufficient enough.

There is no perfect person in this world. The richest person in this world must be lacking something in his/her life which he/her wanted most but can’t get it. Perhaps it’s love from everyone. The poorest person may not have the money to do even the simplest thing in his/her life, but perhaps he/she gets loved by everyone around him/her.

Life is never perfect. Same goes here. I may not be able to achieve whatever I’ve always wanted in my life, career, etc. But I always get loved by everyone around me.

I’ve got a very loving elder sister whom may sound a bit fierce to me at times. But in fact, she loves me a lot. Since young, she has always been there for me. She’s always pampering me with her love, it’s really beyond description. Whenever she gets to know I’m down and needed help, she’ll definitely be there for me. I love my sister very much.

I’ve got a very naggy mummy and a very quiet daddy. But when they got to know I’m feeling sad, they’re super anxious about me. My daddy don’t have to tell me that he loves me, but I can sense it in his conversation. Though my mummy keeps repeating to me time and time again that she loves me the most and I told her I don’t believe her, but in fact I know she really loves me. Just that I can’t accept the fact that she said she loves me the most when I know that she loves my second brother the most.

I’ve got very nice and caring friends around me. Friends who’ll always tell me they love me and they’ll always be there for me (which they’re always there for me when I needed them most). I thank God who gave me all these friends to stay with me throughout my sad moments in life. They’re my pillar in my life as well. Without them, perhaps I’ve long returned my body and soul to God.

God didn’t give me a very smooth sailing life, but yet he gave me very loving family and friends around to accompany me throughout my life. What more can I ask for from God?

I don’t, can’t and won’t blame anyone about why my life is so bitter. All I can blame is myself for not being able to make the best and do the best out of it.

But best of all, God gave me Andrea and Adrienne. They’re the best of the best I can ever ask for in my entire journey in my life. I love Andrea and Adrienne the most and I'll love them forever.

Thots Abt My Life

What is it that you want in your life? What is it that you hope you can get in your life? What is it that you needed in your life?

Very often, we’ll lose our direction in life. We’ll lose our momentum in life. We’ll lose the will power to live.

How do we pull ourselves back whenever we’re lost? Can someone enlighten me please?

Very much I want to do the best for everyone, my family and for even for myself. But I always failed to do so. I don’t even know how to get the best results for the things that I’ve done so far.

I never have any regrets of whatever I’ve done so far in my life. No regrets of all the choices I’ve made till now. No regrets of the path I’ve chose to walk. No regrets of living my life with whoever I’ve lived with before. No regrets of loving whoever I’ve loved before.

But all of a sudden I’m so tired of everything already. So tired of how my life goes. So tired of living life as it is now.

Till that day/time comes, no one is sure of what’s going to happen next.

Daily Thots

In life, don’t ever expect the best to happen to you when you needed that miracle most. All you can do is to only hope that the worst will not befall onto you. What you think is right may not be what is seems to be.

Life is so tiring. Maintaining a good people-to-people relationship is so damn tiring. How to make the best out of both worlds? You can’t man. It’s either a win-lose situation or a lose-lose situation. Ok la. At times there’ll be a win-win situation.

Oh gosh~ What nonsense am I talking about here? I’ve absolutely no idea about it and I really can’t sort out my thoughts right. Don't know and don't understand why i'm so moody here.

When you think all the hard work that you’ve put in for the company is worth it when you’re given that second chance, everything breaks apart again. You don’t get the kind of rewards/satisfaction/appreciation you’ve always wanted in that job. Then you start to ponder and your thoughts start to wander off again. You start asking yourself again and again if whatever you’ve done and re-done is worth it or not? Is it that all the time and effort you’ve put in are wasted again?

In life, you’re always put in those decision-making scenarios. You’ve to decide what you want to eat for breakfast/lunch/dinner. You’ve to decide what to wear to work today and the top priority tasks you've to complete by today. You've to decide what kind of hairstyle you want for this season and what colour you want your contact lens to be. You’ve to decide which schools your kids are to attend and what kind of CCAs they’re suppose to do. You’ve to decide this and decide that. Life is so damn tiring.

I don’t know when I’ll stop deciding everything or when I’m going to stop thinking about everything.

I just hope you will stop forcing me to a corner. Stop arguing with me and making my day such a bad one. Stop wanting those things from me that you don’t really need that urgently/badly/importantly. Don’t always think that you’re always right and I’m always wrong. It’s because of your stubbornness that makes our relationship so sour. 9 years ago we were bonded together because of a piece of paper. 8 years later we were separated away by another piece of paper. Get on with your life and let me get on with mine. Stop making my life so bad with all your nonsense. If you think that making my life so bad so you could live happier, then you’re really damn childish. Stop scolding me being such a childish kid when you’re no much better off. You’re the most unreasonable and childish person I’ve ever known so far.

You were once like a saint to me. Now you’re far more worst then a devil in my heart.

Revenge gets you to nowhere in life.

Thots

Everyday you wake up in the morning, you have a choice. You have a choice to start the day happily or to start the day with a face full of sorrows. Whatever you’ve been thinking about during the previous day/night, leave it to stay where it was. Don’t carry it forward to the next day. Life is so stressful when you think it is stressful. Life is so carefree when you think it is carefree.

It everything as easy as it is? It is so easily said and done?

I don’t want to think about anything or everything until it is so detailed. What will come will eventually come. What will go will also go away afterall. Why do I have to bother about everything and make myself so tired? I am so tired. So tired of every single little thing that comes in my way. Am I starting to hate everything? Starting to detest life? What’s the best solution here? Why am I always forced to make the decisions and choices in life? Am I destined to have such a eventful life?

Anyway, what’s the point of complaining? Does it gets better or does it solve anything or everything?

I’ve been visiting my mum at SGH recently. She went for a total knee replacement operation. She’s been behaving like a small kid. Just don’t know what to say to her. Everytime when I visit her, thoughts start running into my mind. I began to think if one day when I’m like my mother lying in the hospital after undergoing an operation, will my kids visit me everyday? Will they come and stay with me until I say I want to go to bed then they’ll go back home?

I am really such a loser. Such a failure in life. What I wanted in life I can’t get it. What I don’t want in life I get it.

I missed Andrea and Adrienne so much. Do they miss me as much as I missed them too?