Sick & Tired of EVERYTHING

I'm having a terrible headache. It's a piercing pain at the top right corner of my skull. I really hate this feeling. Take panadol already still doesn't work at all.

Shit!

Must be due to the stress at work. I really hate that back-stabber. I really hate that fella who pretended to be nice to me yet at my back, during his confrontation with my boss and the HR Director, dragged me into the picture. Instead of apologising over his poor performance at work, he puts all the blame on me. Say that I'm not being able to help him at all and thus cause him to be overloaded and stressed over work.

I hate this I hate this I hate this!!!

Then here I am guessing what did I do wrong to lose a best friend's concern over me. What did I do wrong? Why did she start to turn so cold towards me?

What's wrong with my life again? Everything seems to hit me so hard.

I've been a very hardworking staff at work. I really put in my best to do everything and to ease other's burden. Yet, I get it left and right on my back.

I know I've been neglecting my friends and family. But all I wanted was to concentrate on my career first. I want to be more stable first before I..............................

For all the favourite gym time I've given up and for all the fun time I have given up to be with my friends, all because I wanted to be better in my career, seems to be a wrong choice.

Nevermind la. I'm tired. I can't get the whole world to please me neither can I pleased the whole world.

Sometimes I just wished I had died the last time I tried to die.

Really damn sick and tired of everything.

So hard to be in other people's good books.

So Tired!!!

so many things to accomplished..
so many expectations on me..
so many deadlines for me..
so many these and that..
so many people to entertain..
so many tasks to complete everyday..
so many restrictions..
so many so many so many..

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I am not a superwoman..
I am just a simple gal with a simple goal in life..
I just wana earn more money to provide a better life for my kids..

Haiz..

Think I so powerful meh?
Think I really so strong meh?

I am so tired so tired so tired..

HelpPPpPppPppPppPPPppPppPPppPppPpppPPPppPPPppPppPppPppPPppPPpppPp!!!!

Daily Thots

As I was re-organising my photos in my FS account, I glanced thru all the photos and suddenly realised how time has passed by me at such a quick pace.

It was Dec 05 when I left him.

Looking back at what I had gone thru and what I am going thru now, is life getting better for me?

Career wise I'm definitely getting better, and I've more time to get myself familiarised with work. Of cos, personal time with family and friends becomes lesser. Time spent with Andrea and Adrienne gets lesser, but I know we'll get to enjoy more quality time together when I'm more stable in my career.

Emotionally I'm more stable now as I've a evergreen pillar by my side always. (^o^)

I've to get stronger mentally as I always encountered alot of difficulties at my new workplace. They don't come 1 by 1. They come at a shot and I'm expected to resolve all no matter if it's new / outstanding works. It just seems like I'm the only executive in my department.

Haiz..

I always tell myself. They can stab me or bang me on the wall and make me bleed. But after that, they must call for medic to attend to my wounds and not continue to kick me out to the road and let me get rammed down by cars mah. This will only cause me to die instead of making me suffer more leh.

Er.. Chim right? Must hear and see the way I define it in person then you can understand what I'm trying to say.

hahahahahaha..

Anyway, it's ok. I'll learn it the hard way and it'll make me a better man.

Er.. Better woman I mean. =)