so very tired

so wad if thr's Skype?? it doesn't make any difference at all if d other party is not concentrating on the chat wif u.. i rather stop d conversation and nt chat.. it doesn't cure d misses.. it increases d anger.. angry of being so far away.. long distance r/s is so difficult to handle.. i doubt i can handle it well..

nw i tink bck.. y do i wana stay hme and wait for a call when i could be out thr enjoyin myself?? and in d end.. get myself so angry over a small little thing.. i've doubts over my own decisions nw..

startin a new career and studies at d same time isn't easy at all.. i wana focus on my job but i've no time for my studies.. i wana focus on my studies yet i cant do much on my work.. doin both at d same time left me wif v little time readin God's words and also no time for my kids.. is these all wrong decisions made by me?? wad should i do?? its nt abt my time mgmt skills.. i alrdy cut away d gatherings and outings wif frenz yet i cant do much on anywhere else..

i'm tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so damn tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. extremely tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so so so so tired.. v tired.. super super tired.. v tired.. extremely extremely tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. v tired.. so tired..

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.. i'm breakin dw again.. dammit..