Daily Thots

suddenly felt like bloggin aft being away for such a long time..

shifted to a new place in JW abt 3wks ago.. rented a rm which costs me $480/mth (c/w mattress/aircon/cupboard).. stayin wif a young couple (wife same age as me, hubby older than me 2-3yrs) & they hab 2 kids.. Donovan is 6yrs old & Krystel is 3yrs old.. d kids are cute & r quite well-mannered.. they'll greet me "JieJie" when they see me.. esp Krystel.. nice havin them ard.. heex..

at times they're quite noisy in d living rm & their parents always worry tt i might b disturbed by their noises.. in fact.. i enjoyed their noises.. feels hme.. i simply missed my gals.. at times i hear them play outside wif their parents.. i'll start to tink.. y cant i hab such a life?? i used to hab it.. where has it gone to?? tinkin & tinkin makes me cry.. haiz.. crybaby attack..

anyway.. still nt v used to stayin outside on my own.. at times i wake up in d middle of d nite (nitemares again) & when i realised there isn't a close kin wif me in d hse.. i start cryin again.. i felt so lonely.. so alone in tis world..

d trip hme fm wrk is nt as bad as my 1st nite bck.. suddenly in d train all unfamilar faces.. none i've seen b4.. i sms-ed Jie.. & i cried in d train.. stupid ppl keep starin at me machiam i'm some alien.. hahaha..

haiz.. here i am.. eating cup noodles & studyin for my exams.. kinda missed some gd old oiliness in my life.. hahaha..

thou i'm nt v happy at times.. still pondering if i've made a wrong move in life.. but.. life still goes on..

Dear Daddy.. pray that You'll continue to watch over me.. Bless me in every areas of my life & take care of ALL things in my life.. Gimme d strength to be able to work & study at the same time.. Bless all my love ones.. All these I pray in Jesus' name.. Amen~